i am sorry Donna. you always seem to have an overflowing plate.
fondly
bobby

I am sorry that you have had some down days.
hugs to you both
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i took another hard fall in the kitchen aand skinned my wrist. I have to be ore careful. rats. it is scary.

I met the new rabbi intern this morning. I didn't feel well and my place was messy but I didn't her number. I took a bath and begain to feel better.I just cleaned up a little.It turned out she called and we talked for a half an hour.
She call me again next friday.
I saw my pdoc's dog on the video cam. what a doll face. I saw such a soft side of the doctor.He said he can me free varylar so I don't have to worry.
he said only have two cups of coffee in the morning. maybe that will help my sleep issue. He says the new medicine takes time to get in my system..
I had a bad stomach ache this afternoon. Aaron hasn't called so I don't think he will.
My friend Joyce told me to take care of myself and practice self preservation.
I guess I had better ice my wrist.

Bobby

Do you have a life alert, if not please see if your case manager can
help you get one for when you might need it for when you fall in
your house. This is in case you can't get up or get hurt worse
than you have so far please.

I hope your wrist is better soon.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i just have a studio and i really can't add to my expenses.
fondly
bobby
aaron called. that was nice. he reminded me of robert and how he would help me.

I think they are $35 dollars a month here, so they are not expensive.
It is an excellent idea.
Here they sell the kind that looks like a watch,
and of course the necklace kind. They are water proof so you can take a shower with it on.(I think).
love you

bizi

]If I fall and get knocked out, i won't be able to use it anyway because I would be unconscious.
I don't get much ss so I have been spending my savings. I have also been on a spending spree so I am way over my budget.
I don't think you understand because you have two incomes and not terrified of running out of money. to me it is expensive.
love you,
bobby with the worse stomach ache.

i also haven't seen pudge eat or drink. she is moving around now and letting me pet her.
https://www.neurotalk.org/members/56...cture5736.html

she isn't acting like a sick kitty. she is moving around a lot. I think she had just used the litterbox when I was getting to the bathroom. there was a nice solid poop. I feeling more confident now that I am walking with my head down.
I think it is very difficult growing old and being bipolar 2.

Can bipolar cause stomach problems?
Gastrointestinal system

Anxiety associated with bipolar disorder can make your feel tired and irritable. It can also affect your gastrointestinal system. Some of these effects include: abdominal pain.Oct 25, 2018

bobby, bizi putting on nurse hat.....
With all of the falling that you have done you are lucky that you have not broken any thing.
If you fall and break a hip you would not be able to crawl to the phone.
Unless you carry your phone all of the time.
This is part of self care.
We only suggest this because we love you and want you to be safer. It would be a smart move to get one.
love you
bizi

I have a cellphone and that is a good idea. I will carry that around all the time. I am also trying to clear off the cans on my kitchen floor. I giving a lot away because they are soup and high sodium. NOW WHEN I WALK I AM GOOING TO LOOK WHERE I AM WALKING RATHER THAN LOOKING FORWARD.
i have to get used to the medicine and I have been distracted that Pudgy might not be up to stuff although this morning she purred and let be cuddle and rub her tummy. I just haven't seen her eat. I am worried about having to spend money on my mouth. also in the middle of the night Pudgy was grooming herself which is a great sign but then she threw up a little very digested food, not bile. a full physical would cost about 300 dollars.
My IBS is back! It is so awful.
I am very fat and have a lot of padding. I didn't know I wouldn't be able to crawl if I broke my hit.
i just bought a cross shoulder purse to hold the phone.
thanks so much for caring.
love
bobby

pudge is throwing up some more

hazel throws up quite often. We feed them en food that is easy on the digestive track. we think hazel is eating the kitten food we are going to take that up when it is gone to see if hazel will stop throwing up. Jeff said ok.
so I am going to throw that out. So all cats will have the en food. It is a gravity feeder, one bag is 8 pounds and fills up the container twice. It is pricey but our cats deserve the best food. And we love them like children that we never had.
bizi
Have you heard from Mari?
bizi

I still haven't seen her drink or eat. I wrote robert and told him but emphasized last night after I petted her and rubbed her tummy,she groomed herself, a very good sign/ I asked him if she didn't eat or drink tomorrow night could he take her to the vet. the vet could give her something to give her an appetite. He can walk there in less that ten minutes, maybe five.

Do they throw up hair balls? any plants that pudge could be eating?
bizi that is what hazel has been doing lately.

haven't hear from Mari.
when Pudge had stomach issues she and abby were put on very expensive prescription cat food. for good..
the throwing up shows me that she has eaten recently but it is so very dangerous when they don't eat or drink. the vet might give her something to stimulate her appetite and rehydrate her. i love them so much

she drank a lot of water

Bobby

Talking to the nurse that you called or your case manager. Most of the
time these can be picked up by the aging agencies for the elderly for
free. They are paid by some programs. I don't know exactly what
they are called. But my mom had one paid for by hers.

I don't have one yet. But have been thinking about getting one too.
At some time in the future.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

No clue for a cat that isn't eating that throws up. I have one cat
that will eat too much and then throw that up. I can see him eating
to much or say too fast and then he throws it up. The other one I will
see throw up some but not much. But unless she loses weight I
don't worry about her not eating because I don't see her eating very
often, only because she wants to eat when no one is watching.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

yes we love our cats too.
bizi

of course and you know what hell it is when they are probably sick.
Love
bobby

that is so interesting about your kitties!
I will ask my case worker. Thank you so much.
fondly
bobby with a stomach ache

she ate. i saw her coming away the food bowl so i am positive she ate

cats can be pretty active at night while we are asleep. glad that you saw him eating so your anxiety decreased.
love you
bizi

pudge is a she. her real name is violet. usually because i have a studio they sleep when i sleep usually.
she hasn't eaten and water today. i had her up all night last night and early morning.
love
bobby

i bought this scale. great and easy to read
Weight Scale, Precision Digital Body Bathroom Scale with Step-On Technology, 6mm Tempered Glass Easy Read Backlit LCD Display, 400 Pounds from amazon.

been listening to leonard cohen. he was great

she just drank a lot and then ate. I am so exhausted and so very happy!

Its so easy to trade the him for her. I do that too. Even though I have
a girl and boy cat. And boy dog. And derrick's dog is here visiting till
Wednesday;. he wanted to come out with me. So since Derrick works
from around 8 till he gets home at 5 or so. I thought good time
to come visit with us.

I also know Derrick needs to clean for our meeting on Wednesday.
So this will make it easier for him.

I had to cancel my graduation party for my niece in Kokomo just
didn't feel like driving to it. With Derrick, so will have to go later.

I just have this head mess, and asthma. But it will get better now.
Its running its course.

I had cancelled our spaghette party for the arc, and someone decided
to complain that I had volunteered and then pulled out. I can't
wear a mask that long, it was 2 hours. And I cancelled early so they
would be able to fill the spots and gave Derrick the option to stay in
the thing or not. But with him not supposed to eat spaghetti, for
his low carb diet. I don't think it made it appealing.

SO we both left the board of the arc. I wasn't real happy anyway
with the way they were doing things, cancelling at the last minute
with the meetings, and not giving any warning.

I just can't always give it 2 days a month with no time of warning.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Forgot to add, reason we left, someone decided to give me a hard time,
about my severe asthma, and volunteering then withdrawing and not
giving enough notice. I shouldn't have volunteered at all. I should know better. Last straw, same person almost always has words for me, if something goes wrong.

oh donna, I am sorry that she is after you.
you know you rightfully so don't have to

wear a mask since you suffer with asthma.
Have you been able to wear a mask while out and about?
bizi

bobby,
I forgot that pudge was a girl. Are both your cats girls all 3 of ours are females.

yes
love
bobby who pigged out on pastry and feels sick to her stomach. It was so impulsive.

Donna
Hope you feel much better. Times are really rough.
fondly
bobby

I am having such a hard time. The double fall has wrecked me. It hurts most of the time to walk. I think it will take a long time. Then Pudge stressed me out so much. I was also terrified that I might have to spend 300 dollars at the vets. I am terrified because I am s dependent on Robert. What if he were to be busy to take Pudge to the vet. I can't now carry her case to a cab and take her to the vet.

the pdoc couldn't give me anything for my overspending and overeating.
I have been with him for seven years. I just learned that.
i am switching iras. ugh

Yes, I wear a mask into stores and places that require it. But I don't
stay more than about 15 minutes or I will take it down for a couple
minutes to breath. Then I will also leave and go back later if its
necessary. THe local dollar general staff knows I have asthma so
they are good about not saying anything if I have got my mask
down.

I just didn't want to set a bad example with the kids we serve by
not wearing a mask. For medical purposes. I figured some of the
young adults might not have them on for that reason. But its not
something I wanted to do. So I didn't. And I didn't want to
start coughing on them, mine is also a coughing form of asthma.

And this season has been bad. Its been good for a few years, but
this is going to be a bad year. I have inhalers I use. Just not as good
as sometimes.

Donna

Bobby

Before you switch ask the question is anyone going to be able
to really give you anything for overspending and overeating?

Because I don't know of anything that will work for that. Its called
will power I'm afraid. Also I believe he told you he would provide
the medicine you need. They may not or might not be able to.

I think that might out weigh the other.

Make a pro's and con's list.

I don't honestly know any way to help with either of those things.

I wish I did.
Maybe health eating for the overeating.

You are seeing a nutrientist this week ask her about that.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

my doctor knows so much about drugs. he said that it takes time for the vraylar to get into your system. this morning I took one and aplenzin and feel okay now. again I almost stumbled two times. i really have to throw out cans of food on my kitchen floor.
now I started following a stock which I am so tempted to buy.
pudge seems fine but just wants to stay on one of her two chairs.
I hope things won't be bad ffor you! That has to be so awful.
fondly
bobby and take good care of yourself!
i just asked my caseworker if she knew about free medical alerts. she will check.

hi bobby,
why are you switching IRA'S?
I just started another account

for self employed people, a

SEP. I still have my ROTH it is

called a 2030 because that is when
I plan to retire.
We inherited monies when jeffs mom died.

so jeff is handling those funds. HIs dad

was a ELlilly employee, a photographer.
, so he has a lot stock in the pharmaceutical

company LIllys.
It is a complicated world that we live in.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

that is so great. You too are really set.
I have a 403b from the library where I programmed but if I want to take money out besides the yearly distribution which I am forced to I have to take it all out. I want to switch to one that I can take money out when I need to. These are scary times. It is upsetting me. I had switched to more like a money market before.
a few months ago I had switched from the stock part. I could do that with the fund.. I guess the fed is helping so much that the market is going too high. The one I am going to switch to has 6 percent equities and different bond or note funds.. It is a conglomerate of funds.
I am now getting all these ads on this site and I wonder if they are paid for them or is it chrome.
I think Pudge is mad at me. She won't sleep on the bed.
she wants the computer chair and I move her to another chair.. I think that is why she is upset with me. Thank God she is eating now and drinking.
love
bobby

i have gotten four ads since I typed this,

I think it would help to focus on the less fortunate than to focus on one's problems unless you feel you are in crisis. It might help big time with depression unless it backfires.

I just wrote the webmaster about all the f@#king ads and said they were very irritating and I was wondering who was getting the money,
I am watching too much news again and swearing at the tv

hi bobby, it doesn't look like you slept very much??????
have you ever tried seroquel to help you sleep?
love bizi

it turned me into a zombie!
when will Jeff come home? Have you heard from him? I am thinking a lot about him.
love
bobby