Bobby

You will know and that is what honestly counts. So don't worry about
it. He isn't worth the time or your anger. So just work on trying to
giving the anger to something constructive. I wish I could tell you
something to give it too.

Donna

well trump isn't stressing me out like before thanks to the medication. i think though i feel sort of crazy. i am not at all peaceful. i wish i could take a walk.
i am using rose essential oil. I am out of control.
fondly
bobby

i am depressed. I guess the new medicine might be making me more manic and now not helping the depression, only the IBS, I wish I could cry.

I wish you could cry too, I think you have a lot to cry about.
(((((((HUGS)))))))
love
bizi

my stomach ache and gas are back so the medication is doing nothing. I just took another pill but I am thinking that there is no medication to help me.
I wasted 190 dollars buying those pills. i just took some peppermint capsules.the aapt with the therapist today didn't go well.. i wonder how much the fall affected my mental dishealth.
I just turned on music. the phone call with aaron was strained..

you don't have to read my posts. they are just too negative but I need to let it out.
the rabbi intern is coming on friday morning at nine. I haven't met her. I think I want her to say prayers.
Now I am not depressed. I don't feel manic.The extra pill helped. The stomach pain still here. Like a fool I just made coffee. Somehow it is soothing/
I called Joyce today to wish her a early happy new year. I pretended everything was fine now. I needed to hear her voice because she is so positive and I love her.. I will hear from my new therapist next week. I don't know now if I will change pdocs. Medicare would pay for it and if she gives me klonopin then I don't have to pay 50 a month that I do to my pdoc. she is the pdoc for Bruces' agency and she interviewed me before the agency accepted me. My therapist wants me to get honey which I have and an apple for the holidays.
I can't walk to the store and a cab would cost 8 dollars and I would have to spend 35 dollars to order from one of online supermarkets. I don't think I am going to do it.

Dear Bobby, I'm glad your body is healing from your fall. I hope you can get the medicines you need for everything. Also I'm so glad you are able to get all those wonderful books for such a nice price. Thinking of you. Hugs & love, WL

thank you so much. Right now I am reading three books at the same time.
I am reading Siegfried Sassoon's semiautobiography.. He is great writer.

Memoirs of a Fox-hunting Man
In this first novel of the semi-autobiographical George Sherston trilogy, Sassoon wonderfully captures the vanishing idylls of the Edwardian English countryside. Never out of print since its original publication in 1928, when it won the James Tait Black Memorial Prize, Sassoon’s reminiscences about childhood and the beginning of World War I are channeled through young George Sherston, whose life of local cricket tournaments and fox-hunts falls apart as war approaches and he joins up to fight. Sassoon’s first novel, though rife with comic characters and a jaunty sense of storytelling, presents his own loss of innocence and the destruction of the country he knew and loved.



He hated war and sometimes during the fighting he would stoop and write a short peom.
I am healing from the fall thank God. Taking another dose last night of Vraylar got rid of my depression and I haven't yet taken my morning antidepressant. I don't know what my doctor will do. I don't know if two will keep the depression away or after a couple of weeks that will stop working. I will find out tomorrow how many samples I can get. If I don't get half a years worth I can't afford them .
I am confused about the stomach pain and gas. I started using Acadia Fiber and in the past fiber has always made things worse/ I will stop using it and see what happens tonite. I finally went a little while ago and the pain is much better. I will still take maalox and peppermint.
when the stomach aches went away I started eating meat. I did lose a few pounds.

Last night and during the night everything seemed to cave in. I just couldn't cope.
This morning Abby came over and let me pet her. She is really gorgeous and so bright. I just love looking at her face! It is often times looks like a baby face. I hope you get Mitten.
I just bought another scale and hope the numbers are darker. I hope it is not more manic spending. I bought a colorful pair of pants last night.It is so very hard to be bipolar 2.
love and kisses
bobby

I ordered a lot of Healthy Choice soup...low in sodium and calories.

She is beautiful!

Bobby

Good luck. We all have down days. I'm sorry you seem to have
more than the rest of us.

I've been having a few of my own lately. Just blah days.

Donna