happy Hanuka bobby.
love your way.
bizi

thanks so very much. I ate too much lol. I forgot if I wrote that I had tiramisu!
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bobby

Happy Hanuku Bobby !

I think you did. I hope it was good.

Donna

chantunika ( i know that I have spelled it wrong)
and hanuka. what do they mean,I know they are holy days but what exactly do they mean.
bizi

it is the miracle of lights. The temple was destroyed and there was only oil for one night but instead it lasted for eight days. you have a Memorah with room for eight candles and one to light the candles.You start with one until you use eight. Is that close?

The centerpiece of the Hanukkah celebration is the hanukkiah or menorah, a candelabra that holds nine candles. Eight candles symbolize the number of days that the Temple lantern blazed; the ninth, the shamash, is a helper candle used to light the others.

Hanukkah like you’ve never heard before! - YouTube

My depression is so bad. the new medicine is making me overeat so much.
I didn't hear from Aaron again. for over six months he has been calling me twice a week. Initially he was only supposed to call me for a month. He is back home with his family for the holidays so many he was lonely before. I miss him. I wanted to tell him I finally finished the hobbit-exceptional book.
I had a wonderful time with my new friend who will be a rabbi at the end of the spring. Our conversations are fantastic. I also ask her to sing for me. She has such a beautiful voice. I am trying to convince her to sing on youtube and then you can hear it and I can play it a lot. I had P.T.this morning. It is going to be so slow.
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bobby

i had so much trouble going downstairs. I am stilll shaking. I used a walker and went barefoot because it is easier to walk barefoot. I have made no progress and I think I have gotten worse. I am so scared.

bobby I am so sorry that your bipolar is out of whack. afraid, scared and depressed all at once.
I hope you might find some peace as the week enfolds.
much love to you today.
bizi

it is mostly that I have such a hard time walking-ugh
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bobby

That was quite a you tube video.
I am so sorry that your depression is crushing your spirit.
Have you ever considered ECT or vegal nerve stimulators?
how is your mood tonight?
love you bizi

I heard from Aaron and that cheered me up. My friend Alice said when you get old you have to have courage. I don't think those will help. The major things these days is my limited walking ability and it hurts most of the time I walk. My back hurts too. I am always tired. My sleeping is atrocious. so much of it is physical which leads to depression. i am always hungry. that might be from my new drug. like many single homebound people that makes me feel so isolated.
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bobby praying for you.