I am not depressed now. I am reading. then I remembered that Dorot told me they were getting some social worker interns in September and I can have one. I think that a new one is more likely to try hard to help me. I just won't tell the other therapist. i think i might ask to stay on buspar on a smaller dosage.

i don't know if you heard this one


The most awkward moment came when Maryanne Trump Barry regaled the table with the story of the time Freddy Trump dumped a bowl of mashed potatoes on his bratty little brother’s head. It’s the sort of harmless, humorous anecdote most families relish retelling over the years until it becomes lore. But decades later, Donald Trump visibly bristled at the memory, crossing his arms and scowling.

“It upset him, as if he were that seven-year-old boy,” Mary Trump writes. “He clearly still felt the sting of that long-ago humiliation.”

aaron called and we had a really nice long talk about everything. the iroquis had a democracy.

How the Iroquois Great Law of Peace Shaped U.S. Democracy | Native America

I read some of the article, very interesting.
thanks for sharing.
love bizi

God bless you Bobby! You are very special! Thank you so very much for being you!

i feel so lost. I am thinking of buying a bottle of scotch. I can't stand the way I feel.
I have been up since three. Robert is coming over again to see if he can fix my printer. He now thinks that something might have dropped in it. Last night he was here for one and a half hours working on it. He has so much patience. I was getting more and more anxious.. I was looking on my terrace and no longer saw the drain. New tiles were installed on the terrace.It looks like they covered over the drain. I can't believe that there isn't another way to drain the big terrace to prevent more floods. My anxiety kept on going up and up. The exterminator came on Thursday. Early this morning when I went into the kitchen I saw my first roach and a black bug in the kitchen. my anxiety went higher. I spent over an hour this morning looking for printers in case Robert can't fix it. That was giving me anxiety. I was really hurting because I started missing Suri so much. I am having trouble with God. I am having trouble feeling close to him. That is really making me suffer.
I have been trying to talk to him and tell him I love him but I feel such a distance.
A volunteer might call me today. She forgot to call me on Thursday. Now I am feeling sorry for Aaron. He doesn't like his temporary job and it is such a hard time with the virus to find a new one. He can't be with his wife who is Russian and can't get a visa til she has a physical in Moscow and the hospital right now is only taking care of people with the virus. I am also anxious about not boring him. He is so bright and comes from a wonderful family and I try not to talk about my being the scapegoat in my dysfunctional family.
I had to hang up on Marci when Aaron called so I hope I didn't hurt her feelings. Right now I can't handle being bipolar. My medication doesn't seem to be working. I am so totally stressed out about the virus.

bobby, I read what you wrote,

I have a day of beauty that I am late to going to, will write more later.
love you

bizi
sorry for your anxiety(((((HUGS))))

Bobby

First You explain to Marci that you had been waiting on the call that came in.
So you had to hang up she will understand.

I wish I had a idea on your depression. Its hard to deal with at times.

Good luck with it.

Donna

i called her after the phone and explained but she NEVER listens to her messages. that really irritates me. I am just so anxious besides depressed and my stomach hurts. what a mess.
fondly
bobby
i have never tried geodon and will ask my doctor if i can try it.

I was on geodon for a long time....hope it will help you! It is weight neutral.
((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

i read that. it said it could make you a little tired. I hope not. I don't even know if he will give it to me.
love
bobby