yesterday was so incredible. It felt like the old times in a way. I did so much thinking and talking and listening and bipolar didn't get in the way. I tried to talk Emily, the intern, into putting out some youtubes because her voice is so lovely and spiritual.

during her class, she spent so much time singing. I didn't know I would get into her class so when I spoke with her before I asked her to sing for me.
she said something I never heard before which was very comforting. She said some people believe that God can interfere with free will when the person is really trying and going off track but for pure
reasons while he won't interfere with people who are going off track for not pure reasons.
At five aaron called and the conversation was utterly fantastic and a lot of times over my head. I used to be very bright but I have lost so much of it. I wonder if partially it was due to the drugs I take and old age. we talked about everything , even old Russian stories. He didn't know that Tolstoy was a good friend to Gandhi. I didn't know that Grant was a great with military tactics. and that he uffered from depression.
I really want to learn more about Churchill. I wish my concentration were better.
Saying prayers to you Bizi. You haven't written much.
Love
bobby

just took a bath that helped my depression. Had some trouble getting out of the bathtub.One of these days I have to experiment and try taking a cab. Last time the porters had to get a wheelchair to get me home. my legs wouldn't support me.
I am trying hard now with physical therapy/
Love
bobby

I wonder why your legs would not support you? had you been doing a lot of walking?
sorry it is so hard for you and that you suffer in silence a lot of the time.
love you bizi

not at all. all i did was change the sheets and that was exerting. I have no stamina aand my legs are tired and I am very heavy

i think the p.t. is working I just had no trouble walking. I am so excited, now I probably won't be able to sleep. .

well that is great news!!!!!!!!! maybe you will sleep!
bizi

I over did it and went back wards.. Yesterday I had trouble walking as usual. I wasn't supposed to exercise that much. I even had cramps. I also had sweets including tiramisu so gained two pounds. My stocks did awful yesterday and Aaron didn't call last night. I got into a disagreement with my therapist. He thinks Churchill was a great man because he helped get rid of Hitler. I think he was a terrible man because research says he has the blood of three million Indians on his hands. Um I was already depressed and am very depressed. I wonder how many kind people there are in the world.
My sleeping as usual is awful.
Today I hope to finish the hobbit.
love
bobby miserable

Age-Related Sleep Problems


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I am sorry you got into an argument over churchhill.
how was that even part of your therapy?Did he bring it up or did you?
love bizi

i brought it up. It upset me.
love
bobby