[Dmom3005]

Thanks Bobby

That is what I'm trying to figure out. Also trying to figure out
if he can go to a urgent care instead of emergency room.

Donna

[bizi]

urgent care he may have wax build up and need to be cleaned out. This is not an emergency room visit.
just my opinion.
keep us posted
bizi

[Dmom3005]

It became an Fire dept and ambulance call on Thursday night. Thanks
to two seizures, and ear problems at 8:15. When he called me, he was
working to cancel the things he had scheduled the next day.
1. First his cooking class, second calling someone to cancel his bus.
Not making much sense, and hanging up on person. Before they
understood importance. Saying still have to call mom.

2. Called, me at around 8:25, saying I've called my cooking off, and called
other person, and asked to call bus off. And then I used magnet, but not
sure it worked, a mile a minute. Half understanding him. Then I think
I might have had a seizure. I got a word in edge wise here. Said, call on call
tell them you need to go to ER, for ear. Because I could tell he was crying, and
upset, and also seizure. He then said, something no clue what. hung up calling
on call.

3. Gave him time to call on call, and them call back. Because that is the
procedure, when they have to call someone. But I called back about
15 minutes later, going on 8:40, He said, another person on phone, she
said, if seizure call 911, he then told me he had another seizure. I told
him I agreed with the person he needed to call 911. And I believe he either
hung up or had a seizure and got cut off. Couldnt reach him again. Oh
I remember at one point he had told me he was on phone with other
person. So we hung up.

4. 5 minutes later, after waiting for him to call me back, and him not.
I couldn't get him, and it kept ringing to voice message, and did till
I saw him at er. The fire men, had taken him without shoes or his
things. Nothing but clothes on. No phone even.

5. He had luckily moved out of door before they got there. He had at
least one drop seizure and todd's paralysis, which its been years since
he has had that. But he hasn't remembered that. And it scared him
because he couldn't move his body for a while.

He has a ear infection, and is out here with me now. Was coming till after
the 4th of July anyway. Has antibiotic and ear drops. So two different kinds
of infection I'm guessing. And looks of this he is headed back if not
better Tuesday, I'll call Monday to get him in.

He has no energy.

Donna

[mymorgy]

what a nightmare. wishing only the best. poor guy.
fondly
bobby

[bizi]

oh donna,

am sorry that he had the paralysis like state. how awful!
glad that he got the medication for his ear infections. Wonder how that happens? is he prone to them?
love bizi

[Dmom3005]

No he isn't prone to ear infections. Of my three kids he had the least.

I am not sure what to think about his. It doesn't seem to be going
away as fast as it should we will see.

I realize we also have to wait on the medication to work too.

donna

[bizi]

I am getting weaker by the day.
i don't know if I should make an appointment with my primary, full out of pocket. Maybe I will just wait and see.
I have been being clumsy, almost falling. getting caught up in my chords. every thing feels like it is so hard to do now. I feel like a fat blob with out balance, and I feel if I concentrated on losing this weight I would feel better about my self. I had a nice time at my folks. Felt like I had helped a bit with the out side yard by weeding n front of the big bay window. I over did it and there was a lot of barren dirt which will turn into mud if it rains. I left the ivy so it can spread now

Dad lectured me about my weight, and my drinking.
At one point he said "fat ***". It hurt when he said that. I kept just listening to him, I started to disassociate and finally got up and said I had to go to bed. It was 1130.
sigh
bizi

[mymorgy]

welcome back. you were greatly missed. make the appointment with the doctor f@@k the money. your father was so very cruel. that wasn't fair. you needed support not criticism. he should have just said he loved you and that he was sorry you are going through such a hard time. why does life have to be so painful and difficult,
especially when you are bipolar.
please go to the doctor. i am scared that you will fall and hurt yourself.
love
bobby
please don't wait and make an appointment and i don't know if you should forgive your father.he was so toxic.

[bizi]

Thanks bobby,
I know that my unsteadiness is from my weight gain. topped at 195 this morning.
I must start exercising and doing balance type too, I am so unsteady on my feet.
Jeff and I just planned our vacation. it was supposed to be in destin florida, but we were over whelmed with not knowing where to stay.
So were decided to go back to our favorite place in pensicola.,
paradise inn for 3 nights the middle of aug.
It will be our 25 anniversary.
well I will catch up with you all later, jeff is wanting to go to the diner

for our usual brunch.
It is good to be home.
lots of love to you
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

It was a long time and we sure missed you. So glad your back. I think your
dad was trying and failed to do tough love. So I think I'd just ask him to
not call you names, and keep on you to help you lose weight. And explain
to him you are having a rough time keeping off drinking. I realize you
don't want to tell him Jeff doesn't see the problem, but maybe if he were
to explain to Jeff that your having trouble losing the weight and walking
and other things. He would help you more. I honestly don't know.

But to get back to exercising is one step. But I'm kind of guessing your a
lot like me and want a buddy to be there working with you. I've never been
able to find one to go with me. So I just walk when the weather is nice.
And I watch what I eat. Ugh, its not fun, but its working. I'm going to lose
more weight period.

Donna