Bobby

I realize your not going out much. But I thought I'd let you know,
but you probably already do in many areas the pollen is really lots
worse than most years. No clue exactly why but that might be
why the allergies are so much worse. I know my asthma is acting
up a lot more too.

donna

i have only gone out a few times in the past year . i now am running my ac all the time. i don't think i had allergies until i got my vaccine shots.
hope you feel better.
fongly
bobby

I am sorry for you allergy sufferers.
bizi

i am so angry. the doorman didn't call up to say somebody was bringing up a deliver. that is why i fell and am still having extreme difficulty walking. i felt so much rage. it is the building's policy to ring up. i am not going to give him anything for xmas.. if he doesn't do his job why tip him.
i have also really been worried about money. i don't have a family. i hope i don't live that long.. i decided if the temperature doesn't go above 80 degrees i won't use the air conditioner. i am so upset i feel nauseated.

I am sorry you hurt yourself...and feel upset that the door man did not ring up to notify you of the delivery.I am sorry that you got so angry. I think it should be reported to the proper person in charge of him. So he doesn't do it again.
Especially to you!
love bizi

i am still so angry and so depressed. it is so hard to walk. i screamed at him and told him that he is supposed to call me when he sends somebody up.
i have also told the other doormen. i told him to write it down. when i see the super i will tell him.
love
bobby

Bobby

I'm so sorry its happened this way. I hope he doesn't forget next time.


Donna

oh bobby, I bet you are still angry, you hurt your foot is that right?
am sorrry you are not walking well.
Can you ice your foot or ankle or what ever you hurt?
Are you able to take advil ibprofen?
sorry you suffer so much.
love bizi

i am still extremely angry about my leg and foot. ice won't do anything and i take tylenol but that doesn't really help. i am a wreck.
love
bobby

something may be going wrong with my computer. i bought a screen door to replace the broken one. it came yesterday and i don't know if is going to fit. the super helped me. like a fool i said i would pay 150 to install it. if it fits it looks like that is too much money. i tormented myself most of the day. finally it hit me how self critical am and i am not compassionate, show forgiveness or love to myself. if it doesn't work out then at least i will get a lot of help from my two therapists and the pastoral intern to work on these issues. my parents were very critical of me from the age of 11 and my dead sister used to call me a fool and hardly had anything to do with me. top this all with being bipolar and not aware of it until my late fifties.
i think there is hope and hopefully i can control my binging.
love
bobby