now i am doing a lot of research on protein. i definitely have not gotten enough in years. thanks for the push.
love
bobby

just gave myself a sponge bath and washed my hair in sink. i have trouble when the floor is a little wet.i become unstable. i should get that product for cleaning and shampooing today. if it works, even if i get a grab bar i will stop the sink and bathtub altogether. i have been slipping in and out of depression. again i only had a little sleep and my anger has returned. .
the good news is so far i have lost 11 pounds. i also have a ton of books i want to read. i haven't been lonely for a few days now.

i stubbed my toe badly. i am going to cancel my doctor's appt tomorrow

oh that can really hurt! Was it your big toe did it effect the nail?
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

yes. it is really discouraging. i don't even know how i did it. once again is was my weaker right foot. there was blood at the base of the big toe.. i took pain killers. i hope my doctor does get mad at me for such a late cancellation.
i used this morning that product washes your body and shampoos your hair. it was so easy. i washed my hands. it lathers up with a little water and lathers and dries fast. my feet were the last to clean.
i straightened out my apartment a bit before a hurt my toe. worrying is one of the triggers for my depression and anxiety. i will really make an effort to have my studio more organized and only have a few things on the bed.
love
bobby

so sorry about your toe, ouch!!!!!!!!!
I put a towel down on the floor after drying myself off. This way I don't touch the floor with my now clean feet then I put on clean socks before I get off the bath towel.
WE all have our habits and what have you. You will figure out what works for you best. I am sure of that.
love,
bizi

interesting. the stuff i used in the morning dried so fast. today turned really depressing. marci discovered so many roaches. it was worse than awful. marci sprayed and sprayed and killed so many. i had bought two other things to kill them. one was small cubes of boric acid with something in it
Harris Roach Tablets, Boric Acid Roach Killer with Lure, Alternative to Bait Traps (6oz, 145 Tablets)
Great Value - Minimum of 145 tablets included to treat a minimum of 12 rooms, long lasting when kept dry & extremely cost effective
EPA Registered - Registered with the Environmental Protection Agency (No. 3-1) for use in homes with people & pets
Irresistible to Roaches - Active ingredient 40% boric acid w/ our formulated lure to attract roaches. Does not have an expiration date.
Kills the Entire Colony - Roaches carry boric acid back to their nests to kill the entire infestation
Easy to Conceal - Use in hidden areas - under drawers, appliances and cabinetsbefore i was using just roach motels that work well and plain boric acid which the kitties can't reach. now the war is really on.
i didn't reschedule the doctor's appointment. i have to ask marci if she will go with me. i have no confidence in my walking. it is such a drag with my walker.
my toe is feeling so much better. marci shocked me. she cut my toe nails. i couldn't believe it. i felt so much love for her. she is not allowed to do it. i struggle when i try.
i had tried to reach marci to tell her the appointment was cancelled her phone wasn't working. she was supposed to come at 11 for the 11; appointment. SHE CAME AT 11;15. I had told her to come at 10;45 to make sure we got there in time and she said no 11. i didn't point it out to her. i will when i make the next appointment with the lovely cardiologist. i also am one of those people who worry about being on time so always get to places early. marci is one of the people who don't worry about anything. i don't know if it because she is jamaican or because she is marci. she never gets depressed.
yesterday i had peanuts, too many, delicious cookies, pistachio ice cream and two of the little pies, cherry and apple. i was so out of control when i ordered them. i hope i won't do it again. i throwing out the rest of the peanuts and cookies. i don't think my diabetes was happy.
i signed up for over the phone 4 meditation classes which start today. i am not looking forward to them. oh the pastoral intern will just call today but come visit next tueday. i hope we continue reading and trying to understand quotes from Isaih. it was wonderful when we did it last week. i refuse to discuss my bipolar, anxiety and depression with her. i want our sessions to be positive. i have been listening today to andrea bocelli. i adore his voice.
love
bobby

did you get any sleep last night?
love bizi

not that much and i feel unstable and worried about everything.
love
bobby

I am sorry you did not sleep much.

It sounds as if you have a plan for
your bug problem. I hope it works

exactly like it says it does...'
keeping fingers crossed for you.
love bizi