there were misunderstandings. neither kathy or alice saw the news about geodon. kathy called me and then I called Alice.

I wondered if they had gotten your emails. That can happen.

I'm glad you got it figured out.

Donna

It was such a relief.
love
bobby

last night i talked for an hour with sam, my volunteer and the time flew by.
I told him to get to a Rabbi who is old and wise and who could help free him get rid of his guilt about his bipolar2 mother. He does go to weekly therapy. He really knows how bad bipolar 2 is and he told me I should feel so proud of myself for dealing with it and I told him I couldn't. I told him that my therapist told that me that honoring your parents only meant for giving you life. oops I looked later
looked on the internet and couldn't find it. I found this Hebrew Bible

Dishonouring parents by striking or cursing them was punishable by death and so the clause "so that you may live long" could be interpreted as "so that you are not put to death". In the Talmud, the commandment to honour one's human parents is compared to honoring God. It had freed me from guilt .when he told me. I hope he didn't make it up so I would feel better. I do say many many times The LORD our God, the LORD is one. You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.
I sent Sam great jokes I get from Zeynep and will continue. He read a lot outloud of the Declaration of Independence.. I have to read it again. It really is so great. He said he would call on tuesday, his regular time. He sounds so high and happy and he complimented me that that talking to me does it. We laugh a lot.
We talked about our hebrew names, I think his means He hears all. I can't spell it. He asked if I were religious and said no just a spiritual Jew. I have never go to services except when I was little and don't go to a temple. Although I wanr to be buried in the Orthodox with no service, just have my body washed and buried in a pine coffin, I told him I would never kill myself because I am so terrified of God.

i goofed i bought a different Amazon kcups coffee. too bitter. They were half the price. what a waste.. I just ordered the morning blend.
Ate too much yesterday. Rats. Scary. Makes my walking so bad from the weight gain. I am going to ask for topamax. I don't know if she will give it to me.
love
bobby

Bobby

You wont know unless you ask. I would think though you
might give the geodon another month to let you stabilize
your need for food. Before doing that. To see if you slow
down your need or want for food.

Donna

Dear bobby I hope you have a good day and make some good food choices.
Do you like tunafish salad? or egg salad?
love bizi

Thanks for the great advice. I haven't heard back from her . I was on the phone for a while and her office called me but didn't a message.

i do like both. I have a hard time standing. Since my explosion I don't like using the stove.
love
bobby

Bobby

I don't know what kind of store you would have that might have it.
But we have a store called dollar general that has chicken salad in
a can. That is really good. I even put relish in it and just use it in
a bowl to eat with out bread. When it comes to egg salad.

I know Derrick buys boiled eggs at the grocery store, not sure if
you can get them delivered but you could find out. This would
take care of the need to boil eggs and make the egg salad.
Bobby, the other thing would be to have Marci make you some
boiled eggs one of her days a week. It wouldn't take that much
time to put some on and do that and clean at the same time.

Tuna fish salad, you would just need mayo or something like that
to put in the tuna.

I don't have a store like that. If I order tuna salad it is about 10 or 11 dollars a pound. Egg salad is about 7 dollars a pound. I think that is a lot of money. Marci does do the eggs when I ask. I'll ask on Monday.
I got on the scale and gained 5 pounds in two weeks. The psychiatric nurse practitioner said to monitor my weight. I weighed myself after the phone call
and left her aa message about the weight gain.
Got a call from p.t. agency who comes to the home. Geodon made me do it.
love,
bobby