just bought fifteen books. rats.
had a really great chat last night with Sam whose mother is bipolar 2. He is so very nice and bright and interesting. I am looking forward to next Tuesday when he calls. I couldn't believe how outrageous I was. I was really sharp. He really stimulates me. Really enjoyable. Again he told me I was a brave warrior going threw life with this horrible illness.
My stomach ache persisted through the night. double rats.

I am glad that you had a nice chat with sam.
So he calls on tuesday nights?
How long has he been calling?

How long will he continue to call?
I am glad that you are reaching out.
love bizi

I think this is the third time I have talked to him. Each time it was for about an hour. He got my name from Lenox Hill Neighborhood Association. I didn't reach out. My caseworker whom I have had for for a very long time is wonderful. I don't remember how I got involved with the agency. Celia also got me Marci who comes on Monday and Tuesday for four hours for cleaning etc and goes with me to doctors' and dentist offices. Celia gets her extra hours when Marci takes me to appointments. I have no idea how long Sam will keep on calling. There is something really special there. He is an only son and feels guilt about his mother who is bipolar 2.. The two times before I told him he shouldn't feel guilty when he feels angry about his mother and he shouldn't have that feeling of responsibility. She still works as a third grade teacher. i think she has functioned much better than I have. They are very close. He knows from first hand experience how awful it can be to be bipolar 2. He is so much better than any therapist or psychiatrist I ever had. I have so much fun. I really am outrageous with him. I even mentioned when he was talking about netflix's the crown. if Kate Middleton wore underwear.. I stumbled on the internet with her getting out of car and showing she wasn't wearing any pants. I have talked about a couple of former boyfriends and he was so understanding. he is 28 or 29 and has difficulties with female relationships.
I think it might have a lot to with being the only child of a bipolar 2 mother. He is such a caring person.
just incredible. I really adore aaron who is about the same age as Sam, again extremely bright and married a Russian who he met when he went graduate school in Germany. He is applying to graduate programs here now. He wants to be a professor and writer. I pray for him and I guess I will pray for Sam. Aaron and I have been talking for over a year.
I got hypomanic last night after the call with Sam.
Love
Bobby

You sound a bit hypomanic. I know the feeling.
I hope you can enjoy the thrill it gives you while curbing the spending.

Your post makes me wonder if i have a spending problem. I mean, i do not think i do, but H is pretty much in charge of finances so i dont know if that makes a difference. I mean i can buy things, but I'm supposed to clear with him, especially now after we had some big expenses.

But idk. We also spend money... i guess it just makes me wonder. And is something I'll have to watch. I am not hypo now though, and I'm more concerned when I'm kinda depressed. *shrugs*

watch that hypomania. Intense conversations can lead to getting that way.
I once flirted with jeffs professor at a gathering.It was fun but then I was so embarressed later. I think jeff thought it was funny.
bizi

Trintellix.
it is for anxiety have you ever tried this?
bizi

I have been lately. I don't know if it is the geodon, the holidays or what. I couldn't get myself to leave my apartment to get the mail for three days. I isolated myself even more.
Today I just wrote my friend Alice if she would be my health proxy if that is what it is called. Otherwise since I am alone I can only think of one other person, kathy. I might just ask my caseworker. really sobering.

I too would prefer hypomania to depression. I hate pain.

take care,
fondly,
bobby

I think that is great. Good for Jeff.
I laugh a lot with Sam. I am not flirting. He is only 28-You know I am 77 and a half.It is so neat to be understood finally but also to have great conversations. Yesterday I sent him an email about Princess Diana's family going back to the 1500's and Charles 1917. I sent him the link to that site and it discussed all her many relatives. She was even related to Audrey Hepburn, one of my all time favorites. I didn't know Audrey was descended from Dutch nobility. I had my socks blown off in high school when a fellow student said I reminded her of Audrey. I once saw her walking on Fifth ave and quickly realized they were filming her in a movie.
love
Bobby

I looked it up just now. It said it was for depression and some of the possible side effects didn't sound good. Of course one was constipation and it warned if you were on a blood thinner.
love
bobby

I think Donna's suggestion about bringing your beer along was fantastic.

Bobby

I think you are doing pretty good. Just keep a eye on the mood as
you are. Also I didn't realize you were 77, I thought you were
still in the 60's I knew it was really close to 70 but not that close to
80. So I think you are doing great.

Please keep writing all the witty things you do. I love reading them
all. I'm that 63 year old that is right behind you.

Donna