Sounds good Bobby.

Donna

i am so scared and my stomach has been hurting all yesterday and today.
my therapist wrote back and said we had to discuss why i want another therapist or else they won't give me another. that agency is where i get my pills from and if they don't keep me i don't know what to

i skipped my antidepressant for a day. it really makes a difference. i feel much better so i know i need it.
I really liked my last psychiatrist but i was trying to save money because he charges 60 dollars to write the monthly klonopin script besides charging 150 dollar for a 5 or 10 minute session. which was a special for patients that had been on medicare. if i go back to him i don't know what he will charge..
pudgy ate some food. i moved away from where i was spraying for roaches. she wouldn't touch it. this morning i moved right near the computer and she ate some.

just spoke with my caseworker and asked what to say to bruce, she said
I do not feel comfortable and it is not working out with both us i was expecting more from the session. could i have a female therapist.

Bobby

I honestly think your case manager gave you some good advice.

I also think you might do better with a woman therapist to talk
to. Also when you get a new therapist. Write out exactly what
you would like to explain.

I've been forgetting again lately.

Donna

Also I think one of the big reason's your stomach starts hurting is
that you start thinking about what you need to do. And you don't
exactly have anyone to talk it out with. So you just keep inside
your head and body so it makes your stomach hurt, instead of your head.

So I think when you start to get anxious and need to get rid of the
thoughts you have a stomach hurting. I think its partially a sign
you are thinking of something that you don't want to do or are
not liking to do.

I hope things are good for you.

Hope they can get you a new therapist and you like her.

Also, i think Donna might be on to something about your stomach. I know from experience that it's not always in our control or not all of it, but i do know that venting helps and having that outlet for your worries and concerns and/or even trying not to have worry in your life. Calming exercises might help, rethinking unpleasant situations as pleasant ones. There are several exercises available in the dbt practice. Ask your therapist or clinic if they offer dbt (its something like Dilectal Behavorial Therapy I always forget the d part.)

Hugs*

hi,
my caseworker said to say
I do not feel comfortable and it is not working out with both of us i was expecting more from the session. could i have a female therapist.

my ibs started right after suri died two years ago. it traumatized me even though we talked for 3 1/2 years knowing she had breast cancer and then knowing she was going to die when she had a spot on her lung.
no stomach ache today or this morning. i had chicken broth and two hard boiled eggs and two slices of toast.
love
bobby

Bobby

I wonder if you might be right on about that. Its a heart ache, instead
of a heart attack, because she died. So maybe part of the problem
is that because you can't exactly feel a heart ache physically, its a stomach
ache. Because when you got anxious, upset or just any of these feelings
you knew you could talk to Suri about it.

Could you start by talking to Suri in heaven a little each day now. To tell
her what is going on. Yes, she can't answer in the normal way. But she
will figure out a way to answer you. Maybe just with the fact that the
ache's will start to diminish faster. Hopefully at least. Also do you know
one food you can get that she really enjoyed, that you would be willing
to eat or a tea that you would be willing to serve yourself once a week
just for you and her to have a memory with. Even maybe ask your helper
have a cup with you too.

that is a splendid idea. when we worked together we mostly went for kosher pizza.
I don't think i should do that. I can't remember what she used to eat except ice cream
love,
bobby