I'm so sorry your friend Zeynep sister died. Sending her prayers.
And I am sure when things settle and she has time she will
call you.

I think you do great with your memories if you can start to just
remember you loved your mom.

Donna

my mother was 87 and wanted to die. she stopped talking two days before she died. she was always a very healthy woman.

i think she was too shattered to speak to me and that is why i didn't call her.

yesterday and during the night was awful. linda called and talked about her close friend who died a couple of days ago from cancer that she was battling for five years. then she talked about another close friend who noticed her toes were gray and then her leg was turning gray. she went to the er and they called for i think an orthopedic guy. she was hungry and didn't wait an got something to eat. she went back the next day and they amputated her leg and then had to amputate further because of gangrene. Then something awful was wrong with her heart vessel and she died. all sorts of things are wrong with Linda. i forgot to ask her how she is healing from her surgery.
I kept on thinking of Zeynep but i know she is being comforted by one of her daughters who also helped big time with Peri. She will see her grandson whom she deeply loves loves and he deeply loves her. She is definitely not alone. i won't call yet but will send her another email. I will call her next week if she doesn't call me. She wanted Peri to die to stop the suffering. I am hoping a part of her is feeling some release. i don't know if her daughter in Switzerland will come for the funeral. the daughters hate each other fiercely.
I still have a stomach ache but i will try to do the exercises. my legs and back feel worse.
my kitties are perfect.

i don't know what to write. zeynep wrote , I will call you as soon as I can control my emotions and deal with my pain. . Take care , stay safe ,love Zeynep

i am afraid the pain won't go away and i don't know to respond. She is a very strong woman.

i just wrote her that Peri couldn't have had a better or self sacrificing sister as her.

Bobby

You can also tell her that if she can call even though the pain is
still there. You are there no matter what. You would love to
listen to whatever she needs to talk about. Even if its the pain
she is in with the loss of her sister.

And when she feels like telling the good things she remembers
you would love to listen to those too.

Donna

i have already offered and she said no. i will listen to her. she knows my thoughts are with her and she most definitely likes to be in control. i am so sure she is with her daughter comforting each other in private. i don't want to be intrusive and not listen to her. She will call me when she is really.
finally was able to take 2 hour nap.

She is grieving...wait for her to call you is the right move. She knows you care about her and that is whats important. She will call you soon I believe.
bizi
sorry about you sore legs.

I didn't mean for you to call her. Just to be there for her when
she does.

Not sure what I said made sense now.

Donna

i just listened to zeynep for a long time. peri didn't want to die. they sent her to a horrid hospital and they will send a complaint. sloan kettering wouldn't take her. Zeynep finally had her taken to her daughter's house. she had so many things she still wanted to do.
i told zeynep that no matter what time it was, if she needed to talk to promise me to call.