my parents watch 60 minutes i think that is on pbs at 6pm on sundays and jeopardy every night. 7pm i think.
It is hard to find good tv just in general.
bizi

Bobby, I'm sorry to read that you've been feeling scared. That's probably why you're having those nightmares.

I don't watch tv at all. I do use my computer for shows and news, but the news is mostly all bad these days and not just the regular old "bad", some of the news is really, really bad. I have to avoid it sometimes. I find some of the series good when I'm feeling like that. I have some boxed sets and I also have a couple of subscriptions so I can watch them on my computer. I like the series ones because I really can get involved in them. I recently watched The Sopranos again and before that The Good Wife and I have many others. Sometimes I rewatch The X Files just because I loved it so much.

Do you feel scared because you're on your own or because you're not feeling well and it's complicated getting help if you need it? Maybe both? I think it's totally usual for people to have scared feelings when they live alone and are not feeling well. Plus, while we're all spending so much time isolating we can sometimes feel a little detached or disconnected from the hustle and bustle outside the window. I imagine that you could possibly feel that especially considering where you are situated. I'm out in a rural area so don't notice it as much I guess.

When was your last medication review? You mention they're hardly working and you're not sleeping and everything else and I worry about you.
:hug:

i also like sixty minutes but haven't watched it in so long. i don't know why. i hate shows where people make fun of other people. i am too sensitive and they get me angry and unhappy.
love
bobby

i never tried the x files. i will try it out. i don't like violence. i tried the good wife but the main character really irritated me. i did love one pbs series years ago but can't remember the name. there was another science fiction that i loved and the lead i think had white hair. i would watch that again if i could only find it. I still watch way too much news and so worried we are going to lose our democracy.
i don't feel well. i have ibs c and my stomach is usually always bothering me.
i haven't been lucky with medication. they have tried so many things on me and they don't w.ork. the last two tries made things much worse. now i am afraid to change or add anything new.i speak to my new psychiatrist on Tuesday and will ask for the klonopin and aplenzin. i can't remember why i am not on a mood stabilizer.i have tried some. i recently tried geodon and i thought i found the magic pill. i felt wonderful, slept well and was in control. I realized how awful my bipolar 2 makes me feel and interfered with my functioning. sure enough it just worked temporarily and then i had a terrible reaction. i tried another antidepressant pristiq that was supposed to help me sleep but instead made it impossible for me to get any sleep..
You are right why i am so frightened. i loved playing racquet sports and of course my dogs and cats but i have mostly negative memories. i am an introvert and feel so isolated. i really made some bad choices with men and friends. i was raised as a very little girl to be a caretaker and was never nurtured or taught to take care of myself.
I really am finally getting help now. I like my two new therapists. i really like my caseworker. i have two young,late twenties volunteer guys who call me and a rabbinical intern.
When my friend Suri was alive i felt so much better. we always talked about God and i felt close to him. now it is hard. she fought breast cancer for three and a half years and died at 60. We never talked about death.
that is when i got ibs right after she died.
i think about death a lot but am too terrified of God to do anything about it.
My p.t. is working and i am positive i will not need a walker.
fondly,
bobby

We have the series of the xfiles and loved them.
Right now we are rewatching seinfeld. I bought
the entire seasons 9 of them for his birthday.
I think we are on the 7th season.
I am waiting for my husband to say lets watch LOST again.
I will wait patiently.

I will say that the x-files is rated PG13.
we really get into the actors.
Can't wait for the new movie of Downton Abby.

Now that is a favorite of mine!
Some one mentioned good pbs shows on sunday nights.
I hope you try the xfiles.
(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

i only watched part of a seinfeld and didn't like it. i didn't think it was funny. i hate shows which make fun of people.. the other pbs was too slow for me.
i love to listen to music. i love andrea bocelli even though he doesn't have a great voice and i don't understand italian. i love leonard cohen who also doesn't have a great voice. i think Bach is the greatest composer of all time but righti now don't have the patience.
i love to read romantic historical fiction that is witty. when i find an author enjoy i read all her books. i also use my imagination and can go at my own pace. when i read them. right now i can't seem to read anything serious.
Everything I read has to have a happy ending except for russian short stories. they make me feel.
currently i am seem to be so angry.
love
bobby

also worried that we may lose our democracy-ick

Is democracy failing and putting our economic system at risk?

Not trying to get you to watch. But Derrick loves to watch the chinese
shows on Hulu I believe on anime he has even gotten me interested
in a couple of them.

They are romance and sometime other type things in the shows.

Donna :hug::grouphug:





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i don't have hulu

my p.t. went great. james is wonderful..
had first zoom meeting with new psychiatrist. she was so lovely. no change in medication.

I am glad that you had a good day, new pdoc, physical therapy,

happy for you!
bizi