i just woke up and my stomach still hurts and I am nauseated. my only friend in the building was cecilia but she died a few months ago. Marcia is working. Robert said he would come over the past week but didn't and i don't want to call him. kathy and her husband who is also allergic to cats would be too cautious. zeynep has too many problems and alice and joyce and linda don't live in the city. i wouldn't dare call my young volunteer sam who does live in the city and of course aaron lives in wisconsin.
it is probably ibs. i hardly ever leave my apartment..
what a mess and of course i am depressed.
fondly.
bobby
my new physical therapy wrote me again and to try to relax-so sweet.

Glad that your PT was nice to you.
that is sweet.


have you tried any cognitive behavioral therapy before?
love bizi

he is a doll. the only thing therapy does for me is offer me support. If i drank, smoked or did drugs those would probably help with my depression, anxiety, irritability, over spending, trouble sleeping and over eating. my medications hardly work. it is a chemical problem. one of my psychiatrists said if i had been raised by different people it wouldn't have been so bad. i get relief when i can get into a book.
now things are so much worse. i have IBS which doctors can't help and i can't really walk.
Robert wrote and said he was too depressed. His extremely close friend whom he represented died, Her name was Joni James and was a very famous singer and her songs are timeless. She died at 92 and her songs are still played in commercials and movies.
love,
bobby

bipolar gets worse as you age. Thank God I am still sharp with a great memory. I love talking to my two 29 year old volunteers and keep up with them even though Aaron seems to know everything. Sam is very quick and bright. They are so kind and intellectually stimulating.
i have a wonderful caseworker, therapist, intern therapist. I have a fantastic internist who is humble and takes all the time for explanations. My cardiologist is also wonderful and kind.
I played a lot of sports into my fifties. I wasn't depressed or anxious when I was playing.
I am trying not to watch too much news but have a conflict. Even though it is now terrifying I feel I need to see what is happening. Is Putin crazy enough to start a nuclear war?

. Will we lose our democracy because off the racists and anti- Semites?

I forgot bipolar 2 people have the highest incidence of suicide of all the other mental illnesses.

Have you mixed up your days and nights for sleeping. this is awfully early of you or late. I am sorry about roberts loss. He is such a good man. And friend to you.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Bobby

I too am so sorry for Roberts loss. I am sad when we lose people we love
but its part of life. I am trying not to think about what Putin is up too.

I just live life and go through it without getting into his mess.

We all have to deal with him. I am sorry for the people of Ukraine.

But I'm glad I'm not there.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i was up way before -my sleep is awful.
early i went downstairs to get the mail and i felt weak. sure enough i got back in the apartment and took a bad fall on my left leg. it was so painful. finally crawled to the phone and asked for help to get on the bed. three workers came up and with difficulty got me on the bed where i stayed for 5 hours. then marci came. i was so thirsty and hadn't had my coffee. she had to call her coordinator who had to call 911. they came and wanted me to go to the hospital. i said no. they checked out the leg and told me to stand on it. i was terrified because of the pain when i tried to stand on it. it was so much better. marci is helping me to use the walker and get back to the bed.

bobb,
I am so sorry that you keep falling and hurting yourself. I think it is time for one of those emergency buttons "I have fallen and I can't get up".
what if you broke something and had to wait until some one came to see about you. carry the phone at least with you.
love

bizi

i crawl or will get knocked out so i couldn't use the button. i have to figure out the phone. don't you dare mention it again. i get furious. i am on a tight budget.
i didn't sleep much and i can hardly walk.my leg and ankle hurt so much. the p.t. will come on friday.
this was bad.i can't carry coffee with walker.

Bobby

I'm not going to mention it, but just wanted you to know that its
going to go off when you fall. Also you might want to look into
the apple watch. There is one that will tell 911 when you fall and
don't answer or something like that. I'm looking into one for
me and Derrick. Right now I'm trying to find out if its going to
be okay with his vns most will not work with the vns.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

vns = Vagal Nerve Stimulator