i lucked out. my lease isn't going to be picked up til monday so i put the rental deposit in the envelop.
think i am going pig out today and order from amazon's fresh. aby won't let me read. she is being so affectionate.

it was very nice talking with charlotte. i gave her permission to talk to Amelia. i had a good session with Amelia.
i looked at some sites about breathing.

I am glad that you had a good conversation with amelia.
sorry the phone got locked????
so sorry you fell again.
Do you have a chair that you could sit on instead of the bed?
You could use the chair as home base....I am worried about your time in bed and how it effects your back muscles. Sitting in the chair will help prevent more muscle break down.
just a suggestion.
love you,
bizi

thanks so much. i have been spending so much time searching for a cheap android smartphone and reading people's reviews. my hand hand has poor control from the stroke
so many years ago when i was an assembler programmer trained by ibm it was easy. now i just dense..
fondly.
bobby

i use a chair when i am on the computer. up until my late fifties i was very active in sports and walking my doggies.
i don't have to worry about the phone since it's carrier is tracfone.
since that nightmare with risperidone my constipation is worse and very uncomfortable. I might ask my internist for another medicine for constipation.
i seem to be very depressed since last night. it is so hard to tolerate. the falls also frighten me a lot.
right now i feel hopeless and old.
i forgot to add the rent deposit yesterday. will bring it downstairs later this morning. rats.
i love my bed and my kitty cats usually join me.
love you,
bobby
oh i am no longer angry or swearing and maybe that is why my depression is awful.

Eases bowel movement and relieves constipation: Indeed moong dal for digestion is not a myth! Sprouted green grams are a good remedy for easing the smooth flow of bowel movements. It is also recommended as a good natural remedy to relieve constipation in children and adults.

i am shaking so much. I brought the lease downstairs and the super is going to give it to the manager who is in the building today. I included a typed note to thank the woman who helped yesterday dealing with lease. I wrote she was one of the sweetest people ever met and her name was appropriate, Mercy.
I just called my brokerage and asked for a seven thousand dollars check to be sent to me and I will put it in my checking account.. I was so anxious I even forgot my account number. This month will be the highest ever with the phone, the plan, insurance and then the Chinese chestI think about death so much because of my age and health I don't think I will run out of money but I always think the worse.
I got an email for relisting of my new cellphone which was 50 dollars less but it was locked to total wireless. I have no idea how much it would cost to unlock it.
Right now I am not stable at all. I just can't deal with stress all my life.

finally the laxative worked. i always think the worse. I was beginning to think i would have to have my colon removed.i was in so much pain all day yesterday and in the evening. have thought of that before.
This morning after a restless sleep i woke up wishing I were dead.
now i have to drink about 8 ounces of water a day 8 times.. it is going to really be hard because i am so undisciplined. it supposed really help constipation.
i am going to make a concerted effort not to buy any more clothes or shoes. i have been so out of control.
i have so many books on my bed. i am reading 8 again. one is the good emperors of rome. i never studied rome in college past the augustan age.
i am only going to now have one book at a time on my bed. i just started a new book by amelia grey. she is great.
I am hoping this morning wasn't a one day wonder.
i am glad i filed a complaint about the pharmacist. what a f@CKING A-HOLE
aby cuddled with me this morning. for the past few days she loves being in a cardboard box.
oh well- praying that the laxative will continue to work..
yesterday i received another free box from chewy. it had dog food which i will give robert and aby's favorite treats that cost about 30 dollars. i called and they said keep them or donate them.
i had a wonderful volunteer very early in the morning and listened and then gave me a relaxation exercise. i will use it.

I am glad that you went formed?or loose? or diarrhea?
how are the stomach pains?
sorry about you have anxiety.....
love you,
bizi

i got my lease yesterday. what a relief. i forgot linda's hair is falling out too.
she never gets depressed.
i hardly slept last night. today will be my last time to take linzess. t didn't work again. i will use up my bottles of magnesium citrate liquid. i got a call from the company where i bought and was told they would pay the cost of returning it because of the contamination. i said no way. i said the constipation was so awful i don't care if using it kills me.. i can't stand suffering.