[bizi]

Well today is day 2 of not drinking alcohol. I had a NA beer with dinner it tasted great. It is the partake beers from Canada.
so glad total wine and more carries them again.
I think I am going to the gym to try to walk on the tread mill. If I make a mile it will be a blessing. Had my knees exrayed today.
That came back good no broken bones or knee caps. and md wanted me to start using
mobic for pain. It is a non-steroidal noninflammatory( NSAID) commonly used for arthritis. She wants me to use a knee brace
for support. I talked to the nurse about having a cat scan and she called back and ordered an MRI...just have to wait for
authorization from my insurance. She pulled the big guns out which surprised me.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Sounds good Bizi. I wondered if they would do a mri first.
Donna

[bizi]

The MRI'S are scheduled for the 20th. She wants both done just waiting to hear from our insurance company if the will approve it or not. No news is good news she said. We have met our yearly deduction, so here on out till the end of the year I will only have to pay for %20 of the costs. Once we find out what is what then I will go to PT.
Thanks for checking up on me. miss you.
day 5 of diet. down a couple of pounds, I yo yo so much I am sick of my self.
bizi

[bizi]

It was easier getting up out of bed today.
jeff gets up around 7 am to walk and

run a bit for 4 miles feeding snacks

to cats in the neighborhood.

I think I got up around 9;30am.

We went to hub city diner for breakfast like usual.
I had my BELT bacon lettuce and tomato

with and an egg. on rye bread not toasted.
It is my favorite breakfast, I skipped the side
of hash brown that normally comes with it.

very satisfying. the breakfast came out in

lightening speed. so we were back from the
diner by 11am. when we would normally

have just gotten going at that time.
I did not have any coffee this morning and on to my 2nd
cup, take my vitamins and brush my teeth.
normal morning things.
Doing laundry is a sunday task as I am out of uniforms.
Hoping that your pain/anguish/anxiety, lonely feelings subside a bit today.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Hi,
I had my second eye done today. Really was different. Hoping its
not a sign of problems, but just because I'd had the other one like
the nurse said I could expect. I have some redness in the bottom
of the eye, when I put my eye frops in. But I don't remember if
I looked at it last time so its not going to bother me. I'll worry about
things tomorrow. I know the eye has been more irritated for the
last two weeks, so I'm going to guess that has been the problem.

Derrick has been working, Dale & I went to a funeral in Kokomo
of a good family friend on Saturday it was a pretty good turn out.
We then came home and ate lunch and did some other things.

He really seems to be enjoying his retirement. I'm just getting
to the point I'm finding it okay,.

Donna

[bizi]

Sorry that your second eye surgery is different. I am hoping it does not cause you any more problems.

[bizi]

I count tuesday as day one of not drinking that is the 5th. today I continue to not drink and alcohol. so that makes a week.
I have substitute with my partake AF beers that are low in calorie and I like them.I made a rule, no more drinking after 9pm.
Don't want to get up all night. I drank 64 ozs of water today. and a can of diet stevia/zevia. Then tonight I had 4 partakes.
For some odd reason they make me a bit congested. I will take my meds tonight with little water. the cogentin almost always
get hung up in my throat, it is the most bitter pill that I take.I have had quite a lot of sodium the last 2 days,
my fingers look so puffy. I am afraid to get on the scale tomorrow. I am stuck at 4 pounds lost in 2 weeks.
Thought for sure that the none drinking would lose the weight quicker. maybe the AF ones are interfering???
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

It could also be the watching to see the weight go down. That was
always my problem. When i quit trying to watch my weight I seemed
to lose more. So I just stopped watching it.

Now I've lost some more.

Not sure how much because I have a goal and I'm not going to state
how much I'm at till I reach that goal, and head to my next.

Donna

[mymorgy]

i have to get this off my chest. Do you think I am an idiot or are you the idiot to tell me you can get pain killers over the counter. That was so dumb or thoughtless of you. I asked you what pain killer you take for your knee and you didn't answer. I find aspirin really has helped in the past but since I have so many stomach aches I don't want to take aspirin.
also I really don't get it. You seem to have such an easy time of losing weight. Why can't you in the future just give up drinking. you found a substitute and you can easily get thin instead of being always on a roller coaster. Is pleasure that important to you that it rules your life? That is very sad. please think of what is really meaningful and important.
yes I really do love you and I hate to see you self destruct..
love you and please give it a lot of thought.
bobby

[bizi]

dear bobby,
It was not me who told you that you can get over the counter pain meds.The only thing I take for pain is mobic which is usually meant for arthritis The creams I suggested are over the counter. Asper cream I have used but the only pain I have is getting better finally. I got up this morning and my knee was not hurting. The process of getting up and out of bed was painful, not this morning. I asked you what you used for your aches and pain. salon paus have 8 hour relief patches. they also make a roll on with lidocaine.
I was taking advil but I know you can't take that due to your blood thinner.
I stopped taking advil it did not seem to help. I was using blue emu at night but that did not help so I stopped that.
are you getting angry again?
I would never suggest some illegal that is just not me. Is medical pot allowed in NY. If it is maybe you request that. It helps with pain issues and anxiety.

I love you too.
bizi