i just had coffee and enjoying another book. Thank God i love reading.

crap-my credit card raised how much i can spend. this month will be high.

Bobby

They did that so you would spend more. So maybe just keep telling
yourself that you don't want to spend more.

Donna

i really have extreme problems with jerks. How does one deal with stupidity?
My friends are extremely bright and two are probably geniuses. I scored at Penn in the 99 IQ percentile of Ivy League students. Once when I was applying for a programming job at Pfizer, the guy called my reference who was Alice and asked her no questions but kept on repeating that he never saw anybody who tested that high. Alice was a child prodigy and started performing on the piano at 4. I did tutor some friends in math and really helped them. That made me feel good. When I was a child psychologist they always gave me the most difficult cases, I was really good.
I was also number one in tennis at my girl's school, at the club and for a year at the University of Penn. I realize that my bipolar interfered.
i had a great time talking to Sam tonight.
I am still thrilled with my therapy session i didn't feel any self criticism and felt so fantastic when I realized that I have always from the start been independent. it gave me such a feeling of freedom.

I have been listening to Holy MOTHER on youtube a lot today. so fantastic.
My friend Robert is a compassionate genius. He has all the patience in the world when solving a computer problem. He refuses to look at instructions and gets so satisfied when he beats microsoft. alice also hates microsoft and mostly uses another operating system.

here is the link to Holy Mother Eric Clapton, Luciano Pavarotti, East London Gospel Choir - Holy Mother (Live) - YouTube
Clapton and Pavarotti were the best in their field without a doubt.

I was thinking about my father. he was handsome, brilliant and a great athlete. he went to penn and harvard law school. he was a judge, prosecutor and lawyer. he was bipolar 2 and used alcohol to escape the depression. I bet if he knew he was bipolar 2 he wouldn't have been selfish and had children to possibly pass on the mental illness with its suffering.

Bobby

I am going to hope that is not true. Because if he hadn't had children we
wouldn't have had the chance to get to know such a great person as
you. I think he may have been bipolar 2, but its something, that he
also had you and you are an great lady. And would have left the world
one much worse place. If you hadn't gotten to be on the planet. So
I'm glad he had you and we met in here.

donna

i didn't sleep all night. my stomach was so awful. my ibs-c gets worse when i am upset. i am trying to work on feeling compassion for dumb a-holes who are too stupid to realize they are dumb.
I just feel so rotten and I have to clean the apartment a bit.

i had some coffee and my stomach finally feels better, it helped me go the bathroom. Yesterday I took magnesium citrate powder and was shocked. In fifteen minutes I went.
I do belong to a facebook group for irritable bowel syndrome with constipation. It is a great group. Most are suffering big time.
I just ordered slippery elm powder that might coat my stomach. We share what we try. Most of their doctors tell them not to use laxatives. what a-holes. One just wrote that her doctor said to use laxatives or else there might be a rupture.
I called my friend Kathy and asked her about my childhood. She reminded me how my mother used to criticize me badly in front of her. It would make Kathy uncomfortable. She said it was emotional abuse. She said of course I would be terrified of my father because drunks can be unpredictable. She did agree I was very independent.
She is sending me a link to lectures on music by a brilliant guy.
Aaron did call and apologize for not calling last week. I was positive he wouldn't but got anxious he might stop. We have been talking for 3 years.
He and his wife drove to Wyoming for a reunion and had a super time. His wife loved the scenery. I was shocked that his parents joined them for two days with his mother's 12 dog Daisy who aaron says still looks like a puppy and kept up when they were hiking. He said he drove back for 13 hours nonstop except to get gas. I just listened and asked questions. He is just so super. His parents are so devoted.
Linda wrote me but I just deleted the email without reading it. Eventually she will get the message.