just called my caseworker and told her about my despicable infantile narcissitic(sp) neighbor who saw me in the hall yesterday with my p.t and walker . and kept on saying let's race, let's race, lets race. My caseworker reminded me what comes around goes around.
I had a very famous and loved friend and boy did she hate him because he was so famous and she wasn't.

just bought more pure peppermint tea-twinings-helps my nausea and stomach pain-awful weak.

Bobby,

Just was saying what helped my son. But it honestly was a different kind
of rage. You don't want that kind. It was a hitting and punching walls
kind.

Also I got the exercises and things, I am just having trouble answering in
private messages. It took forever yesterday and it kept kicking me out
today.

ITs this computer.
Donna

i do have fantasies sometimes of really swatting people like my horrid next door neighbor but I have never ever hit anybody or anything except a tennis ball, paddle ball or squash ball.
love,
sleepless bobby

i think a lot of my anger has to do with sleep deprivation.. I do wish though
that i had told my neighbor i didn't know that fat pigs like you could run. i lost my opportunity.
i think i have to skip the ibs-c forum for a while. it is too depressing. my current laxative barely works.
because of my lack of sleep I have been making careless errors like throwing out one of the shoes i bought for marci and told her about.. thank God I am not paranoid yet from lack of sleep.
i will try very hard to clean what i can the next two days. i am going to drink a lot of peppermint and chamomile tea.
alice still hasn't sent oct's rent check but she is okay. it does unnerve me further.

i couldn't resist. when a porter came up i told him what my monster neighbor did to me by taunting me and before telling me to downstairs to get a porter to open my door when it would have taken her less than a minute. She is such a fat pig.

i am in a much better mood. I read a book I really enjoyed on my kindle so didn't have to struggle reading. I regret writing to Alice telling her about all the rotten things that have been happening and having a hard time coping.
I was out of control..
I know I have to live next door to next door neighbor and can't attack her. When I see her i will just ignore her.
I don't have a stomach ache right now. that really helps. They really interfere with my sleep which makes my bipolar worse. now i don't know why i have to force myself to take all my medication. I am really asking for trouble. Last night I FINALLY TOOK AT 7.. Before i always take it when I wake up..

i am just afraid of going in the hall to practice walking in case i ran into the monster. i called support line. finally she gave me the advice i needed. if i run into the monster tell her nicely never speak to me again. good advice, right.
She also gave me another support group where i can use zoom. off to the hall to see about how many laps i can do.

Bobby

I wish you could find someone in the building that would come up and
talk or help you be a buffer like when your walking the hall. So the
neighbor doesn't get on your nerves. Sorry,

Donna

there is nobody. i am wondering if i can tell the super what the monster did with the door and the taunting and ask him to tell her not ever talk to me again. I will call my senator this morning and see if they have any suggestions.
she is a fat bully and i am sure i can just firmly tell her never to talk to me again. that might scare her. I did finally get her to open the door wide when i was firm.
as of yesterday i am trying to stop swearing. i love to swear and it gives me a great release but i guess it has gotten out of hand so i am going to try to stop. wish me luck.
I suffer a lot from nausea from my ibs so last night i tried a generic super maalox and within 15 minutes the nausea went away and didn't come. do i ever pray that it will continue to work.