Hi,
I had a long stressful day at work today -- just finished some paper work and emailing it off. A whole bunch of my paper work is late. But I got that off because it seemed more critical than other stuff.
And it is still not finished because I will have various people asking me to make further changes tomorrow.


Tomorrow is worse than today was because some of us have to have lunch with administrators. I hate luncheons -- esp if I have to worry about what to wear, get up earlier than I normally would, pressure myself to get to the luncheon on time.


AND I have to try to be charming and helpful WHILE I also try to sit on my hands. If I start to talk, my agitated bipolar shows up and people think that I am obnoxious -- even if I am speaking the truth.


Time for the weekend.


The last three nights I've been reading aloud a short part of the Lotus Sutra before I go to bed (15 minutes). (Tonight will be the 4th night in a row.) It's in Japanese (don't know what I am saying), but reading it seems to make me less tense and make me feel nicer toward myself. Please don't laugh at me.

Mari