Well, I know I am not going to be worth much today. I must of woke up 4 times last night. I got up, then back to bed.

Then the dogs and cockatiels woke me up early.

My arm is sore, must of slept on it some.

I think I am going through that phase, when something is coming up that bothers me, this happens with my sleep. I know it must be next week's appt with the Gyn/Oncologist.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Uggggggggggggggggggg

Hope to take a nice nap today.

Nikko

Oh honey. That's not fair.

I wish I could hold your hand. Ease some of your fear.

I hate doctors. I have my internist and I will freak if I have to see anyone else. And I really can't stand the anticipation of hearing bad news. It does a number on me.

I am thinking about you!! I wish you could sleep better. You need to heal.

Nikko


Apparantly, [according to a book i read, called Food for Mood] if you eat Cellery an hour or so before bed it has a natural relaxent and aids restful sleep, also a glass of water helps keeps you hydrated.

David

I think I am going to call my PCP tomorrow and see if she will call me in a script for Provogil, its for people that have ES exessive sleep, or tiredness, I need some pep.

I don't sleep through the night, then I am tired, this is just because of my mind right now on next week, and maybe the post surgery soreness.

BUT, this tiredness has been going on for quite some time now and I don't know how to deal with it. I need something to get me motivated.

I know about this because my mom had it one time and it worked well for her.

Has anyone heard about it?

I already ran it past my p-doc, and she said to call my PCP, so it won't interfere with my BP meds, because she would of told me.

Nikko

I am sorry that you are feeling so tired...I would be too in your shoes.
IMO....I am afraid of the provigil...I can't do stimulants...it would put me manic.
All meds have side effects so less is better in my book.

bizi

I'll post when I see what my PCP says about it.

Hugs, Nikko

p.s. Since I am BP II the depressive side, I don't think it would make me manic. Right???????????????????????

Wes is schitzo-effective and he went psycotic on one dose. Bad stuff for his chemistry.

I tried it for 2 weeks. Didn't go manic. But it made me jittery. But I drink WAY too much coffee. Probably just a bad mix.

Have you every had a big mania before? I dunno.

I would sure gril the pcp though. It would be nice to have some get up and go for once. I hope you can take it and that it doesn't do anything bad to you.

I don't think I ever had mania. I woke up 2x last night, then at 5am, then got up at 8am.

My p-doc said it is ok to take provogil, she just can't prescribe it because it isn't on the list at COPE and they won't pay for it, so to go through my PCP and my other insurance Humana. I am waiting to hear back from my PCP now.

My mom is cranky and driving me up a wall. Yesterday she washed the floor with laundry detergent, thinking it was bleach. I tried to stop her and she wouldn't.

She wants to learn the computer now, I have NO patience for her.

Maybe I will feel better next week, I see the GYN/ONCOLOGIST on the 7th.
Then again who knows, the whole appointment scares me.

My cousin in Jersey (who was here in Sept) is going in for surgery tomorrow, please say a prayer. She has 2 tumors on her overies, first there was only one and they thought it was fibroid, but now there are 2 and they don't know. She is bleeding every 2 wks.
She is having a Laproscopy exploratory, D & C, etc....I am worried, we are very close.

Thanks, Nikko

Stress. I hope the news next week is better. I think you are right. The anxiety of it all is keeping you from getting any real sleep. sigh.

My PCP called me in a script for the Provogil, so I am picking it up today, see how it works.

I'll let you know.

Had a blow out with Dirk last night, probably my fault, but I didn't like the things he said once the argument got started. Not talking to him now. Went over his brother's and had a few, didn't help matters, OH I'll be right back, 2 hours later.

He just doesn't get it, miss's the point altogether. Doesn't give a hoot about my arm, my cousin's surgery as I write, nor what I am facing next week, he says it's always something. Really, well that's life.

Then the worst words "Did you take your meds today?????????????????????? Like it is always my fault because I am BP.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I said I take them at NIGHT.

That's only a part of it.

I am going to have a good day if it kills me. I refuse to put up with anyone's crap.

Hugs, Nikko