[Nikko]

Well today is his pre-trial at 9am.

I went to my PCP yesterday she upped my pain med to a different one. I have a MRI of my neck on Monday, followed by a Cat Scan of my brain with contrast/dye. So, I have more documentation to take with me.

Did I already post this? My memory is off as I sit here with 2 cigaretts lit!!!
She said I have a bruised brain from the 2 blows to the head and takes months to heal. Plus we will see what the MRI and Cat scan shows too.

Things like down-shifting when I should be upshifting in my car, or going down an aisle in the store, and totally forgetting why I am in that aisle and for WHAT???? Fatigue, depression, headaches from hell, neck pain, etc.

I can bet he pleads guilty and goes for the plea. Which I will have my input and my documents medical/and priors on him, and I will disagree, even though it is the state vs my husband. I should of pressed charges at the time, but I was dazed and hysterical and scared.

If he does get the plea, reduced jail time (means no jail) and the monitering program and if he pass's that, the charges will be DROPPED, I call that a slap on the wrist. Not fair, he could of killed me or done some real damage.

It just ****** me off, that this could happen and he goes along his merry way, and I am going through all of this other stuff, because of HIM.

Hopefully all of my documentation will help show that he needs jail time for a wake up call, it would only be 6 months and he would probably be out in 4, but still. The next woman he gets involved with may not be as lucky as I am at this point and that worries me. People that commit acts of domestic violence men and/or women should be posted someplace or registered or whatever. This is his 3rd, but different states so who knows.

No matter what they don't change, only 2% statistics show, I learned that from my DV case mgr. therapist.

I know I am rambling here, but my nerves are kicking in big time, I have to get back in my angry mode, so I don't breakdown today. Going to take my anti-anxiety pill and maybe a pain pill, since I woke up AGAIN with a headache, yesterday I took my new pain med, and I still had the pain behind my right eye in my head, anyone have that? That is the eye that turned purple.

Then I think if he gets jail, he will blame me, since he has already blamed me or turned the story around to make himself look good. He is really a piece of work doing that with all the witness's at the pool that day.

Ok, I will stop here, have to start to get ready soon, have to leave here around 7:30, because it's downtown and I don't live near there. Plus rush hour and all.

Hugs, Nikko Have a great day, feel good!!!!!!!! I am going to pretend that you all are sitting there with me today for support.

[bizi]

I am sending positive thoughts and energy with you today.
YOu are a strong woman and have endured alot of physical abuse from this asshole.
Which NO ONE deserves!
Stay strong and good luck.
((((HUGS))))
waiting to hear how it goes......
bizi

[waves]

pre.s. Realized my post got kinda "strong" ... if it bothers you in anyway, please ask/PM and i will immediately edit/remove, no questions asked. I am just so ... for you, with you....

Well ... late on the posting but been thinking of you... waiting for you to check in. And write all you want, tell us all about it, get it all out, don't worry if you feel like you're rambling.... Ramble ON!!!! We're here to read.

I so hope he gets put away and that still isn't enough. I hope the state throws every page of the book at him they can find. Maybe transcribed on stone tablets first.

How about castration and a remote control hung in its place. Since he's so desperate to show his manly control.

huggggs

~ waves ~ from across the ocean

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[Nikko]

Waves - no your posts don't upset me, I understand completely what you are going through, so please don't worry about upsetting me.

Keep posting and emailing........hang in there.


Hugs, Nikko

[Nikko]

LMAO Castration with a remote control hanging...so perfect.....


Or just hung upside down by the balls!!!!!!!!!!!!! In the middle of downtown!!!


HA, oh I can think of so many more.....


NIkkko