I am so mad at myself. Ran out of my mood stablizer and didn't notice I was out of refills. So none last night.

I have been so busy taking care of everyone else I forgot about me.

Somebody else did this last week too. Man, I am so sorry. I hope you got your meds.

I feel like utter crap and have done nothing constructive all day.

I should just go home, but there is no one else here.

I called the pharmacy to see if they had found the pdoc. He is terrible to get a hold of sometimes. They said they'd just give me some to get by until they can find him. Thank heavens. Saints, as far as I am concerned right now.

DON'T forget your meds, Bear. Bad girl.

sigh

You do take care of everyone else....
Remember you are the most important person in your life....YOU!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Bear

I'm so glad you called the pharmacy and they can help you.

This is great news. And I agree you do take care of everyone else.

Its a mom thing we all have. Good luck on feeling better soon.

Donna

Bear,

It is good you are able to get some for now. Take care.

befuddled2

I hope you feel better soon Mrs. Bear, I have gone a day without abilify and it was nothing I care to repeat...Definitely a horrible day and I was lucky they had the med in stock. Sometimes they have to order it, so I was lucky. Glad the pharmacy helped you get through this, they understand about withdrawel and that is why they helped you like that.

I agree with Donna, it's a Mom thing, but you have to remember to take care of you sometimes.

Here it is Wednesday, and the pdoc still hasn't called in my script.

And I don't really want to ask the pharmacy to front me any more pills. They are the ones who are out the money as long as the doc is messing about.

I am really not feeling well. I can't believe that this is all just chemical sensitivity. I have only been out since last night. I have to wonder how much of this is my expectation of how I should feel without the meds.

But I do know my mind is everywhere and nowhere. I am having the most difficult time concentrating. I so want to go home.

The work on my desk feels like skyscrapers and I can't even concentrate on where to begin.

You know, I never knew how bad I felt before the meds. Does that make sense? Now that I know what it feels like to be stable, I can't imagine staying like this.

I am starting to realise though that I never really fully recovered from my mania this spring. I have been thinking about my behaviour. I see a pattern that seriously suggests that I have been mildly depressed. Which is better; I was REALLY bad before the med change. But my anxiety level is sky high. All the time. Over nothing. Can't make myself shower, won't leave the house, can barely keep it clean, tired all the time and now I can't get to sleep. Strange, foreign thoughts-really dark. ugh I can usually just ignore them, but not when I don't have meds.

Sigh. everywhere and no where. Enough whining. Just helps to say it out loud instead of it spinning away in my head with nowhere to go.

Bear this is the time to think of yourself..Please call the pharmany again,
they don't want you to suffer.and if your Doc has made you wait this long,
he or she needs to shape up...grrrrr...old nurse Sue

Call your p-doc again, then call your pharmacy again, explain to the pharmacy what is going on. Let them give you some, until this gets straightened out.

Make sure your p-doc knows what you have been going through and for how long.

Good Luck, Nikko

Dear Mrs. Bear,

Can I be outraged for you that the pdoc is not being good to you.
Look, missing a dose or two is a big deal. These meds are powerful.

I'm sorry that you have been feeling so off and down lately.

Mari

Dear Bear,
I hope you called the pharmacy and pdocs office again.
This really is upsetting!
I am sorry that your anxiety is out the roof and that you are feeling unbalanced.
There is a lot of stress this time of year and you need your meds!!!!!
Could you possibly fax something over there....just another way to get their attention and then it is also documented for your chart.
I am sorry sweetie.
((((HUGS))))
bizi