Hi,
I woke up at 6:00 am feeling frightened.
. . . This along with a headache and a slight fever.

Normal people get up at 6:00; I am almost always awake at this time because I have not gone to bed yet -- except for the past two mornings.

Now I remember why I hate to go to bed at night. I hate/fear waking up when it is still dark outside. I was in a little bit of a panic earlier. I'm crazy maybe.

Now I am wonder how I going to manage going to work later at 9:00 with this low grade fever. . . . Wondering if I stressed myself out yesterday or if I have something.

So I don't know what is happening.
Weird to be fearful --- esp. this early in the day
. . . . only 3 hours of sleep..

Mari

Dear Mari,
I am sorry if I stressed you out with all of my postings...I did not mean to do that.
I am sorry that you woke up scared....hopefully you can come home soon and take a nap.
hugs to you
(((((hugs)))))
bizi

Dear Bizi,
I stayed home from work today. I slept all afternoon until 6:30 pm.
I still have a headache. Maybe I can go to the gym for a quick work out and hope to feel better by tomorrow.

M.

I can be fearful anytime :-) If you are feeling badly, it makes everything worse. There is a bug going around up here...last week for a day I had the chills and started the cough again.
Did you feel slightly disorientated when you woke up? Do you have a favorite quilt? Maybe you should get a silly stuffed toy..I am serious..a cuddly silly stuffed toy. My kitty cats keep me slightly orientated..I know they want to eat..
I still believe you have been going through a lot of changes, changes for the good and that is scary...until you get used to the new you. I wish it were easy to Let It Be .......I wish you believed in golden safety nets...the other day I visualized a close friend whom I told you about being caught in one...since I couldn't help him with the trials he has been going through. I also thought thank God I am not a man and have to take all that pressure if I wanted to fit the stereotype of what makes a strong man.
DON'T PUSH YOURSELF WHEN YOU FEEL FRAGILE...THAT IS AN ORDER LOL
bOBBY
PS DON'T LISTEN TO ANYBODY WHO GIVES ORDERS

Mari,

If you have a fever you'll more than likely should be on anti-boitics. Of course it is a debate these days whether or not some things really need anti-biotics.

befuddled2

Two hours of sleep. Hot and headachy again.

I asked hubby to take my place at work.
I have to send him with some notes/memos and stuff to take care of.
A few other things I can take care of on the phone like I did yesterday.

I feel like I am being punished for doing something wrong. And I have no idea how to help myself.