[rutro]

Howdy ya'll,
Let me introduce my self first. I'm a retired electrician. The Dr.s turned me out in 1996 after to many back problems. Fused at the neck and lumbar spine with every thing else in between going bad also. With pain meds I cope with it. My spouse is also retired and has a multiude of problems from Lupus and FM and all the bad things that go along with them.
She is also most certainly BP. I was ten years into this relationship before it dawned on me. This is the time of year when she realy has a bad time of it. She will not admit to the fact of being BP and instead denies it with a passion. She knows she has a problem but trys to make me the scape goat so to speak. When she is depressed it's my fault and all the problems in our lives are due to me. After the hollidays when she gets back on an even keel she will apoligize. Then everything will be OK for a while as long as I act as if nothing ever happened.

I don't know how to get her to go get the help she needs. After a near devorce several years ago she agreed to talk to a therapest but when she went she never made it past the receptionest. They did not accept her insurance and she would not pay up front.
We are full time RV'ers and now I'm at my Dads helping him through a surgery and she's 500 miles away at the coast in the RV with the holliday blues giving me what for long distance and by email.
I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. But I realy wish someone could tell me how to help her.