Greetings:

On Sat I saw my acupuncturist and told her about the fight/disagreement that I had with my sister and that led to our presently not talking.

The acupuncturist is a practicing Buddhist.
She told me that I have zero responsibility for my sister's bad karma that put her into our dysfunctional family. It's her own karma as it was my karma that put me there too.

(This is from Nichiren Buddhism and certainly not how all Buddhists would interpret this.)
And I it doesn't sound quite right to me.

But it felt good when she said it. I can pray for my sister.
Otherwise, according to my acupuncturist, I am free/obligated to focus on improving my own karma.

That's what I will do.

Monday I see my tdoc for the first time in about 2 months.
I guess I should go to bed already.

M.

Sounds good Mari.

befuddled2

She is right.
bizi

Hi,
The tdoc sort of said that she thinks that my sister and I will get back together sometime in the future because it seems that this is an important relationship for both of us.

She also said that now that my emotions have calmed down, I can start thinking about the relationship intellectually and about how I might want things to be different if/when we do start talking again.


I realized last night that my sister might be more hurt over this than I am.
But again, I'm not responsible for her feelings.


M.

Mari

You are making quite a bit of good progress through this.

I'm so glad to see this.

Donna

are you glad you saw her?
Sounds like she may have helped.
bizi

This be the verse by Phillip Larkin

They **** you up, your mom and dad
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were ****ed up in their turn
By fools in old-stylen hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can
And don't have any kids yourself.





I need to make sure I come up with a plan and do something good for myself tomorrow.. . .worried that I could be starting on a funk.

I want so much to

1) get more sleep and more energy
2) learn to live in the moment -- free of worry, free of attachment to outcome,


Both are doable but they are knocking me out right now.

Mari

YOu are such a strong woman Mari and I honestly believe that you can do what ever you desire.
THinking of you today and hoping that you can enjoy it.
bizi

Thinking of you too.

Hugs, Nikko