Oh Gosh. No one gave me any input. I must have said to much. It was a nightmare. It was the truth.This haunts me to this day.

Bizi I think that you will be OK. Nothing like this would happen to you. I hope that this didn't scare you. I didn't mean it to. What they prescibed me was much different then ambien. You will be fine.

I was just pooring out me heart in rememberence of the late 1970's period of my life. This left me with allot of hurt,and now I cannot trust Medical professionals.

I know one thing. One to one,and 1/2 Mg.s of Xanax a day is not working for me any more. The luvox is for the OCD. I called social services,and no one answered this afternoon. I left a message. They didn't call back. They haven't called me in three weeks exactly. I feel like going out somewhere and scream,will someone help me! I'm a mess. BF

Hi BF! No, not at all, I just was busy today had to go shopping and didn't have time to read it yet. Pleae don't feel it was too much, it's good you shared it, give me a few minutes and I'll read now and post more.

BF can you drive to Social Services? Are you functional enough to drive? If you are I would go out there and see about talking to someone personally even if it means waiting for awhile. Try to stay calm, I take avitan for my anxiety and am grateful it works. It sounds like your sister is burnt out as a caregiver even if she's not living with you taking physical care of you.

I don't know why she's doing this, maybe it's her way of giving you tough love, to try to help you, though she probably can't see how frightened you are of becoming completely unable to care for yourself like having no financial resources to do so would leave you. Has she talked about what your options are? If so what has she been saying?

Do you have Medicaid and SSI at least? I would try to get on SSI and definitely see about medcaid and food stamps. Also start looking into the local food banks in your area, get signed up, you need all the help you can get when the money runs out and for right now you need it to stretch for as long as you possibly can.

These are serious problems, but you CAN do it if you can focus on the goals you make and do the footwork to make them happen. You can get food and clothing from local 'charities' and the social workers should be able to help you. Oh boy, I was assuming you are in the US...If you're not I don't know what to tell you as far as advice on dealing with these things.

Tell me if you're in the states and have a car and maybe I can offer more advice, if not I will have to talk to some friends in the UK if you're there. Bless your heart BF, you don't deserve what you're getting tossed around at you.

Thank you. My sister has MS. My mother had MS. Her mother had ALS. There is some neuro flaw in my family line.

I have a car. I'm a good driver. I have a perfect record. There are allot of bad drivers out there, and I'm very aware of it. I would have made a great traffic cop. lol I pull off the road when I can because there are allot of tailgaters out here.

People total cars hitting Deer out here. So I make sure that I keep a proper breaking distance for a emergency stop if needed. I said that to say,I'm a very good driver. Driving sometimes removes the thoughts. Gas is going up though.


I'm going to see if I can withdraw my 401K. I have some money in there. Not allot. Waiting for this SSD hearing is depleting my Trust Fund,and now I'm going to have to use my 401K. If the people let me withdraw it,I will start spending it in about September to pay the bills.


My lawyer requested a hearing in December,but he said that my case is still being evaluated by Social Security Disability. I hear that I'm in a hard state to get it.The web, says you have to have a Specialist lawyer in Social Security Disability cases. I'm in a Commonwealth State. If the Judge declines me,what do I do then? Do I take it to the Supreme Court?


I've had problems with this since I was about 13,or 14 years old,but now it's really taking a toll on me. I have life long undeniable problems. I don't know why I'm going through this hell. My chest hurts from the anxiety right now. I have a pain from anxiety that isn't letting up in the lower left part of my chest under my ribs. My neck is cramping on one side. I've got anxiety all over.


I've never seen my sister like this. She is usually angry at someone,but not me. I even wonder if she's trying to push me over the edge. I've never heard her talk to me the way she's talking to me recently,and It's a sudden thing,out of the blue. It's like she is on the edge of hysteria.I live by myself about 5 miles away.She did scream at me on the telephone about five years ago. Her temper flaired,and she let me have it with both barrels. I didn't do a thing to deserve that. From what I understand,they had a problem with her at work. She was angry with me for six months. I didn't do anything. She went through a period of anger at me that I didn't deserve. The same thing is happening to her again. BF

Mari He's a psychiatrist

Dear Friend,
Yeah, I realize that. I wrote it wrong the first time.
Tell him to recommend somone else.
And get an appointment.

Mari

Friend,
I am worried about you.
M

Pamster When I give a well though out opinion,she usually says the opposite,about science,politics,or anything else. It's just becoming a terrible thing,and I don't understand whats going on,or whats motivating her thinking. She's 57,and I'm 55. She has to be right.


It's something about siblings,and her being the firstborn. We are both well into our adulthood,and I don't understand what it is that's motivating her to be irrational,and bitter. It could be a combination of things,but it's got her going whatever it is. It might be her age,medicine,or how she responds to anxiety,and MS. She said one day,YOUR CONDITION IS AFFECTING ME! I don't mean to be affecting her negatively by my anxiety. I'm stuck where I am. I hope she doesn't become more hostile. I've never seen her like this.

Mari Thank you. I appreciate your concern. Your a true friend

I don't think it was that you said too much BF
- I know for me my eyes kind of get lost when the sentences don't have any breaks in them.
I end up reading the same sentences over and over or I skip one and have to figure out what I missed.

I'll break it up in to some paragraphs and I'll bet there will be some more replies in no time.