[Pamster]

So I found out the 'district' isn't processing 'requests' for things and services right now and there's not a definite date yet for when they will resume doing so which means no trike for Jackie right away. I am disappointed because I wanted it to be here before he got out of school for the summer but that's not going to happen. Oh well, nothing can be done. Only emergency requests are going through the district at the moment. I wouldn't have found this out had I not emailed his coordinator, who said she'd call when she heard anything.

Anyway, Jack had a dr appt today and got back blood results, no diabetes, no bad cholesterol and all so that was encouraging, but the best news was he's lost almost thirty pounds in the past month! I am so proud of him! I wish it was me, but I know I have less to lose so I am just thrilled to see him have this dramtic start. It's because we've totally changed how we eat in the past year, makes me wonder how much he was at the start of this change, but the point remains that he IS going to stop the bad damage that's been done to his body IN time I think, so I don't have to worry about him dying on me anymore. I can't tell you how much I worried about that, that he wouldn't be around in five years, that was about a year ago it was in my mind he wouldn't see forty. But not anymore!

Now it's my turn to catch up to him! LOL!! But seriously, I'll be happy if I just continue to lose weight and do well on maintaining his weight loss by cooking healthier meals for us. Jackie's doing a bit better in school, still a little rough, but he's doing better. And here at home he's been much more agreeable to be around. Except for trying to FLUSH poor Mr. T. We stopped him the two times he's tried this week but it frightens me that he wants to do it! I really love that turtle and he's still small enough he would go down the drain. It really scares me.

Oh well, so I feel good, I am thinking I might want to get off the paxil since I am exercising and feel better, and then part of me thinks about how "If it aint broke, don't fix it" meaning being stable now doesn't make it okay to dump the paxil yet. I would like to get off it this year at some point so maybe if I lose more weight, get down to about 160-145 from where I'm at, and that's only about 30-45 pounds for me to lose, then maybe I'll feel even better and be in a position THEN to want to drop the paxil. Point is I want to try to get on the least amount of medicine that I can take and still feel good.

Our stimulus rebate hasn't come yet, I called and was finally told that they aren't doing all the ones like mine (people who usually don't file and filed just to get the rebate this year) until the end of May, and I might not get the direct deposit until the second week of June. So I have been a bit let down. I wanted that money earlier then we're getting it, and have been kinda wigged thinking I wouldn't get it at all since it hadn't come yet. I was relieved when the man told me that today. SO in spite of the bad thing and obstacles we're facing, I still feel positive and content.

Hope you're all doing well.