I need advise. I'm just tired of it all. I posted so much. Now I just don't want to post. I need help. I'm not getting it from this Nurse Practitioner with social services. My sister let me have it again. My brother in Law said she's a sick women. I'm sick also. Alone. Going broke. Waiting for SSD. Tired. Confused. Angry. Dread. Feel doom coming. Things are not coming together. Was better. Now going down. Tired. It just gets more complicated. Pain. BF

I'm so sorry for your hurt and pain, Brokenfriend.

The best advice I can give you is to get some sleep. The problems are still there when you awaken, but you are refreshed and better able to deal with them.

I wish I could find a magic wand and fix everything for you.

Praying for you, BFriend.

BF

I'm so sorry you're going th rough some hard times Brokenfriend. Can you ask your Nure Practitioner for a referal for some more in depth therapy? I know it's frustrating waiting on SSDI, but once it happens it will change your life, for the better I hope. Hang in there, like Twinkletoes said, try to get some sleep, things always look better in the morning.

I'm keeping you in my prayers Brokenfriend. Be good to yourself.

I'm so sorry BF.

I wish I had the right words to say, but you know that I've been going through something similar myself with my own sister.

Please talk to us BF. We're here for you no matter what.

To you my brokenfriend...hopefully tomorrow will be better if not better than different! Take care!!

what is helping me a bit is to tell myself that God loves me unconditionally. Can that help you at all? It might help with feelings of isolation. This is painful to write but maybe you should give up on your sister. I gave up on mine and hardly ever think of her. When I do it becomes too painful again.
I believe in golden safety nets although i forget them at times.Help comes when you least expect it. Unlike most people I believe that sometimes God gives us more than we can bear and then the help usually comes. The impossible becomes possible. I remember once I was so down I snapped. I was in great physical shape. I said to myself nobody can take away my happiness. I started taking walks and enjoying nature and became so possessive of my happiness even though it appeared my world was caving in.
Now I tell myself God gives us what we need not necessarily what we want.
Sometimes that works.
I am so happy for you that you have your health. I wish you could get in a better place.
Bobby

Dear Friend,
Stay away from the sister.

The people who can help you are the nurse practitioner and the others who can provide you medications and support. Flatter them, bribe them, pester them -- whatever it takes -- until they get you on some medication that makes you feel better.


Mari

Thank you all. That's interesting Mari. Good idea!!! BF

Dear Friend,
I know that you are going through a difficult time. And I know that these kinds of times can be made worse by family that is horrible.

But one way to look at is that for now, you can't change family. That leaves your best hope with the medical system. Get them to help you. They will. It might take some prodding and pleading on your part, but you can do that. Ant it will be worth it.

What happened to the Abilify that you were one? Did you stop it? Did you get something else? I hope so.

Is the place you go to offering you hope?

M.