Hi Bobby. Thank you for the info on the Meds being free. Soon,I'll need that. My 401K will be running out sooner then I thought.

My sister said that she is not going to support me. I'm waiting for my SSD hearing. I don't know why she's saying this to me suddenly. Suddenly she didn't like me about 6 months ago,and she's turning her back on me. She has MS,and my brother in law said that she is a sick women. It might be the MS. It's making her angry or something. She started out not liking our Mother. She didn't like anything about our Mother. She doesn't like our dad,uncle,etc.etc.

I heard her making remarks like you can choose your friends,but not your family. All of this has grieved me. She has not liked little things about me. She doesn't like my opinions,hobbies,and etc. She doesn't like the way I tried to clean her house. She criticizes every thing I do. She said I was 20 minutes late. It was a progression of all of these little things. Now she is turning her back on me.

She's filled with resentment. I've tried to make peace. She said she is not going to like me. I'm a nice person. I think that the MS is affecting her this way. Recently dad has turned his back on me. We got along before he moved in with her about 8 years ago. He moved out. He said he wants to be left alone. He's got a bad temper,and use to be a alcoholic,and use to fuss at me allot. He vented on me. We got along from the 1980's,and up to around 2000.

Recently I asked if she was going to move me over there,and she has said nothing. She still hasn't. This worries me. She's left me hanging. She's being irrational in my opinion. She knows that I have emotional problems of some sort,but she doesn't like it. I cannot help the fact that I have emotional problems. I didn't choose this. I think that she has turned my Dad against me. She is so bitter,and so angry,that she has talked against both sides of the family. Now she doesn't like me.

Leaving me hanging like this has made me wonder what's going to happen to me. What if SSD rejects giving financial help to me? This scares me,and I have dread of the future,and it is making my condition worse. My future,the big question. Am I going to end up homeless?

Will my brother in law intervene? He doesn't give me the time of day. He never has. My Mother died last year. Her love disappeared a long time ago. She withdrew from us. I don't know why all of this is happening in my family. It seems like my dad,and sister don't care about me anymore. I know that they have their own problems,but are they taking it out,or blaming me for their problems. I don't know.

I don't know why the Klonopin doesn't work. Since 1969,I've been on Valium,Librium,Ativan,and Xanax. Brokenfriend

Thank you. I wish that things where happening more quickly. The government doesn't work fast I guess. I hope that things work out.

I've gotten frantic,and bought some things that I'll need before I become broke with my own 401K retirement money,and I told her what I was doing. She called and said what I'm down to financially. I gave the bank permission for her to help with my money. She seems to think about money all the time. I don't need her to keep telling me how much I have. She keeps giving me bad feelings. This is overbearing,and disrespectful. I cannot get her to realize it. How would she like it if I did that to her. They bought a 10 thousand dollar rug from India,a 750,000 thousand dollar house,on 10 acres of land,and etc.,and etc. They spend,and spend. I just don't know.

She gives me a feeling like I cannot do anything right. BF

She just called me up,and gave me a panic attack. BF

I just got a phone call from my sister,and a angry email from my dad. When my dad is angry,it's worse then hell fire. I have two things bothering me more now. I called Social Services. She said call Emergency Services if I need more help. I felt a panic attack from my sister,and rebuked from my Dad's email. I'm sitting here, and don't know what to do. BF

It really scares me when Dad gets mad over nothing. That probably stems back to my childhood. I'm frozen right now. I can't think. BF

Hi Brokenfriend and all!!

I've posted numerous pharmaceutical company links to their patient assistance programs on the Medication Forum...
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread13042.html

I hope this helps anyone needing assistance in getting their medications.


Abbie

Dear Friend,

Walmart has medications for over 300 generic prescription drugs.
They charge 10 dollars for a 90 day supply.

http://www.buy-american-made.com/drugs.php

I don't see Luvox / Fluvoxamine on the list and I don't see Xanax / Alprazolam.
Still, this is good to know -- that maybe the Nurse Practitioner can put you on a med that is on the list -- if you need to get your medications this way.

Mari

Dear Friend,

Here's my philosophy -- even though nobody asked for it


Sometimes a person has a certain illness / condition that abosolutely needs medications. It doesn't matter what kind of support they have or what kind of therapy they get. They need the medication.

After they get good medication for a while, they can start benefitting form therapy. Before that time, talk and support therapy is almost useless.

This is the situation I was in until I was properly medicated.

Mari

Mari
I agree with you one hundred per cent
Bobby

I just called my Dad,and he was agitated for me calling. I was only nice to him,and he had a minor operation,and said he doesn't want to see me. He didn't want to see me awhile back. He does have a horrible temper that seems to be coming back. He,my Dad,doesn't want to see me. This hurts me all the way around. He's 88 years old,and I don't believe that he loves me anymore.

None of my family wants to see me anymore. My sister says I get emotionally charged. Well ,thats not exactly true. My dad has a bad temper,which has come back. My sister is ill right now,but she has judged me I think,and it's upsetting to be warned every time I see her. When I get warned about money,which has been hundreds of times,and has been run into the ground over years,I get upset when I hear it over,and over. She did it again today. She said something that created a panic attack. A panic attack dazes me,and for some reason she has never caught on to what that subject does to me. It leaves me hanging with a weight,and dread,and is counter productive every time the way it is expressed.

Now I'm really down. I feel rejected by my whole family. The only one who wants to see me is my Uncle who is a minister. He says he loves me. He lives in another state,and is getting old. Neither my dad,or my sister want anything to do with him. I'm not trying to make this into a drama. I'm just trying to make myself clear.

All that I know is dad helped me all my life. He may be reacting to that. All I want to do is see him to say hi. He repeatedly does not want to see me. My sister,and brother in law don't want to see me. They didn't want to see me before,and don't want to see me now. This makes me feel unwanted,and not loved. I cannot help my condition. It has broke up previous relationships in the past,but I didn't think it would cause rejection in the end. I'm heartbroken,and in pieces about this,and to know that they aren't going to help me financially hurt's even more.

I cannot Fathom this. I'm nothing to them. They don't want to see me. I had been considered the family problem. Where's the love? Where's the value in my life. I have value,but I have been slowly devalued by a family member,because I was different. I'd say I'm unique. I've been through a low point in life for so long,that I can see to clearly certain things. Adding years to suffering,what I see in things isn't on the up,and up. This grieves me.

Do I sound that bad of a person to not want to be seen,or helped? I'm seeing through broken pieces,and being controlled,and contained.

I have bought things to distract my thoughts from crashing in on me. I have created projects. I have thrown myself into projects to forget,and to feel alive,and to not be grieved. Even this is not understood,and deemed irresponsible,or bad by my family. They don't understand that it's therapeutic for me.

What is there to live for? When people don't respect you when you have tried you best,but have hit hard times. I might as well not see the light of another day,then to live. I cannot take my life,because thats wrong. I'm stuck in limbo,and there is nowhere to go but here. My life has seen many years,and this is it. I've been living with this thing for to long. Now with the threat of no finances,this will be a step lower,which is hard to believe that I can go lower.

I can hardly believe what I'm hearing from another family member. I cannot end my life,and I cannot see beyond the near future of seemingly emptiness.

Now that I'm not working,and disabled,where is the help this country is suppose to offer it's citizens who have become disabled. This most definitely hasn't pulled the family together,or created warmth ,and love. With this long wait,it has caused family conflict,insecurity,dread,and fear of becoming homeless on top of the actual problems that I already had. I don't know what to do. Brokenfriend