OMG about snow ball:(
I am sorry.
It sounds as if you are at peace with him,...this is very good and you shed some tears....
happy/sad for you.
bizi:hug:

Dear Bobby,
I'm sorry to hear about Snowball.
He and you were good together.
Mari

thank you. the shock is beginning to wear off and the loss is setting in..my friends have been so supportive and God has intervened. I hope i go like snowball, suddenly in my sleep. That strange sound i heard must have come from him.
I want to write about him. I imagine him as golden dust..he was so evolved. If there is reincarnation i don't think he has to come back but i always had the feeling he wanted to be a dog lol. I think cats are more evolved than dogs even though i love dogs passionately.
I am going to spend more active time with my two cats and bother them! I don't know if they are upset or not. Yesterday Abby was meowing for a while. I know this should be a time for celebration and Snowy now has freedom from his poor quality of life. I hope he knew how much he was loved. Love doesn['t even describe it. I was so honored to have him as my kitty cat.
Bobby
ps Mari I read all the links you provided. Thank you so very much

Dear Bobby,
How do you feel about what Dr. M. said about being acutely ill?
He is probably more accurate than the therapist. But was he mostly agreeing or disagreeing with her?

It is probably good to keep the pdoc informed about what is happening with any therapist. That way he knows what is going on and he can let you know if he thinks that the therapist might be leading you down the wrong trail.

Mari

I think he was disagreeing with her since chronic and acute are opposites. I think he is right. I really am handicapped and becoming more and more aware of my emotional limitations. Hopefully the more I get a handle on them the freer I will be to work within these limitations instead of overdoing things and falling into deeper depressions.
My therapist who I just found out was born in Brazil is going there on vacation so i won't see her for a month. She said when she comes back, she will get me a caseworker.
My mood has been a roller coaster. I feel sad some of the time for the loss of snow but so happy he is freed from his chronic ill health. He was such a brave boy. I am hoping to gain some strength from him. Today for a while i went into a dark deep depression but came out of it.
Last night my friend suri called from Israel. I immediately told her that love was the purpose of life and she said she just put down a book from the4 chicken soup for the soul series which said the same thing. Then we talked about the purity of love, the love of God and compassion. It was a very uplifting conversation.
Bobby
bombarded by fears