[Mari]

Hi,
My apple computer crashed tonight. It through me off because , well because having a sick computeer is disappointing. And no, I did not back up documents.
I'm writing on a little tiny small machine -- don't know what it is called --- tiny lap top like thing with MS 10. I've used it like 4 times . . . .trying to get used to it.

DID I TELL YOU I AM OUT OF MEDS????!!!

What was I thinking?
I have some Klonopin. OK
I have ONE Verapmil. I can take it tonight, call the pharmacy's computer for renewal and call again in the am myself to try to get three emergency pills --- Ive done that in the past with a different store. I feel like a moron for not keeping track of my meds and for cancelng pdoc appts .
Part of me thinks that I might have some meds aroudn somewyere -- but my room is chaotic.

I am trying to stay together. Keep myself together somehow.

Work seems to get worse each day. It's almost impossible to go in. I feel stuck.

Thank good ness I have klonopin -- such a magical med. And thank good ness I am so tired I barely care about anything.



M.