I am so glad that you have kent in your life.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Dear Bobby,
I don't know about you, but this election has really taken up my life.
It's no longer just in my head. I can feel it in my body.
I've ridden the ride since about Jan 08.

I'm ready for it to end. I'm beyond anxious about it; I am totally involved in it.
I'm going to do some "self-talk" (word that my tdoc likes) and tell myself that after the election I can let go.
Let go of that.

I cannot imagine how consuming this can be with cable television.

'Hoping you feel better.

Mari

Are you feeling better? I'm so sorry that you've been exhausted,and have had a problem with quitting smoking.

With the shorter days,there are allot more people depressed out there. I hope that you are feeling better. BF

i am feeling so much anxiety and depression right now. It is beautiful outside. I know i should go out but.....
I am the same way Mari...what an addiction....here we are supposed to eliminate stress from our lives.
I put my hand on my heart a lot when i think of Snowy. I think his death was very stressful and I am probably feeling pain. It is also stressful giving up smoking. I am hanging in there and reinforced by feeling physically better. This morning was the hardest yet. I thought it was supposed to get easier but i guess the election has added so much tension to today. I keep the tv on all night which i shouldn't. I feel as if i am one big blob of fear. I might call my friend in Israel for support. She might have a good idea what to do with the fear. Also yesterday another friend sent me a link to the Jewish view of charity. We had gotten into a minor discussion on socialism and Obama. The article was so fantastic. It again was a blessing. I am just blabbering on....i wish the fear would go away. It is so painful and uncomfortable.
Bobby

You have been under a lot of stress, and once today is over and the tallies are up, you will feel better. This is a hard week to stop smoking.
You are worthy of this hard work.
Know that.
((((HUGS))))
love bizi

thank you Bizi
I think I did have a break through but i haven't incorporated it yet. Kent's son has a mental illness. When he gets depressed he becomes psychotic. The other day I felt so much compassion for Chris. Then I realized I have a mental illness. I guess I still haven't accepted it. I realized I should feel compassion for myself. I don't hold high standards for Chris but rather just hope he gets relief from his illness. I don't expect things from him in his actions. He is handicapped. Then I realized again how still I put so much pressure on myself and am so self critical. I think I should be doing things that are really out of my control. I should be comforting myself and just do what i am capable of doing without putting stress or judgment on myself.
I have to work on this. I have to work on compassion for myself and I guess we all on this forum have to take the leap and start feeling compassion for ourselves rather than making the situation worse.
How can you feel mentally ill when your mind works?
Bobby

Dear Bobby,
I was struck by your mention of compassion again.
It's important. I'm working on it. I want to be better at it.
Mari

that is really great Mari....I am glad you picked up on it. it makes sense doesn't it?
I have been so lonely during this period...I am so happy about the election and so terrified about the economy. I feel so isolated.
Bobby

((((((((((((((((((((((((mymorgy))))))))))))))))))) ))))))))))))

Thinking of you.


Hugs, Nikko

that is really sweet. i have been so depressed this week. kent isn't coming over tonite but he said he would come over on monday.
i have such high hopes for obama...but not enough to drag me out of this depression
Bobby