Dear Bobby:
Kent sounds like a godsend. Everyone needs friends like that.

As for the smoking; I hit a huge depression patch when I quit. It was horrible. I was over the physical addiction rather quickly in comparison to the mental addiction. There are times; this many years later, that I still miss it. The longer you go without one, the intensity of the mental withdrawl fades, and you start to feel better emotionally instead of just physically.

I'm very sorry to hear about Snowy. I know how much you loved him.

Be good to yourself. This too, shall pass.
Bobi

Dear Bobby,
Thank you for what you wrote to me....
I am going to get better it is just going to take a long time.
I did not get this way over night and I am a realist that it isn't going to change overnight either.

I am glad that you have kent in your life...he is such a good friend to you.
and you are a good friend to him as well...I am sure of that.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I am very sorry If I am overwhelming you...
bizi

Hi Bobby,

just want to leave you a hug here. You have come a long way... things will settle down. Hold on. (oh and i saw that you're losing weight - that's great! )

love
~ waves ~

thank you all so much. My wanting to die has a lot to do with fear of money issues. Bobi you are probably right about my stopping smoking. It was such a crutch. I am now taking b right (a b complex) and b 12 which might help.
Time will help with the great loss of Snowy. It still doesn'[t seem real. I just had a wonderful conversation with my friend Suri in Israel. I told her an hour before I decided I had to thank God for the good and the bad that happens in my life. She said that was a wonderful attitude. She said that when she lost her first baby she immediately said a prayer of blessing. She said it felt right. I really don't understand what is happening to me. I don't know if i should find out about a group home. I spend so much time by myself...but to find the right group home. My friends tell me i have a lot of options. Spending my time hoping for a heart attack isn't fun lol.
Bobby

Dear Bobby,
Thanking God seems like it would help. It is part of accepting where you are and where the future will take you.

I wish you were free of money worries.

Mari

Dear Bobby,
thank you again for what you have wrtten to me.
It helsp.
I am sorry tht you are feeling this badly.
Maybe a group home would offer you some additional contact with people...I don't know it is something to think about.
hugs to you my dear(((((HUGS))))
bizi