[mymorgy]

i have been spending most of the time in bed watching msnbc and cnn. even reading the internet is a big effort. Yesterday I tried to stop smoking. I am looking at smoking as a big problem and not worth it. I don't know if i can continue. I still feel snowy is a part of me so although i am depressed over his death i feel he is so close.
my appetite is gone. on friday my housekeeper brought me more soup and i offered to pay three times. she works so hard. I am so blessed. My friend came over that night and we had a lovely time. He is dealing with a lot of family problems but it doesn't show. We talked about them and i tried to be supportive. On Sunday another blessing my dear friend called and invited me out to lunch and we had great conversations. She also has family problems and i tried to be supportive. These days it is easier to listen than to talk.
Bobby