dear waves,
just a quick note before I hit the hay.
take care of your self.
take deep breaths
eat, rest, eat , rest some more.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Dear Waves,
Protect yourself. Especially your parts right now. Keep track of your fingers and feet. (sorry. bad attempt at humor.)

You know what would stink most for me about moving in with folks? The sleep stuff. Or rather the lack of being able to sleep. I guess that your parents are more accomadating than mine because no one can be as much of a ********** as my father and no one can be as up tight with anxiety/ocd as my mother. I saw them for three days in July with hubby and the visit was even worse that the the last vist 18 months before. I might stop visiting them all together. Or make them visit me and stay in a hotel.
I don't mean to make this about me.

I'm saying that if I knew I were moving into some place where my wierdo sleep patterns and excessive need for sleep were threatened, I would be scared. .....not helping.....I know.....just saying I can "get' some of what you are saying/dreading......

I pray that your parents know enough about your rhythms.

From your posts, I think that you are still in your own apt. Maybe by the time it is time to go, you will be a little bit ready. Maybe some part of you will feel relief.

In the mean time, can you sleep? And be a little easier on yourself.
Is it possible that in addition to regret, you are going through some self-blame?

Mari

dear Mari

you and i share many issues in our difficulties with our parents. sleep, rhythms those words stood out.

and self-blame with the move too. ashamed even.

i will call my parents and write more later.

time is close where i shall put my computer on my back and land in my parents house like rock, prey to gravity.

oh, i just want to add, that right now i'm living out of bags in an empty apartment.... and it feels like a bathe in the sea.

hello all.
Moving is so hard....
....I wonder if having to move back "home" is what is getting to you.
this is going to be a very hard adjustment for you....
I wish that it was someway easier for you.
Hope that you guys get along or it will be very very hard to adjust.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Waves,
When you talk about a bathe in the sea are you talking about a cleansing?

Is it nice to be stuff-less? That is my word for now. I imagine that it might be nice to have a few nights of a quiet head with no junk surrounding me.


Mari

mari - yes, and indeed that was what i meant. being in an empty apartment, free of stufff. relatively, anyway. this is my last night here and it's basically a campout... kindofa technocampout with the computer ha. it is kinda weird that i moved my guitar before me. i think it was a way of trying to "pull" myself over there.

bizi - yes, it will be squishy ... it is a known squishyness sort of in the sense that, when i first came across the ocean, i lived with my parents for 3 years before moving to this apartment. so i pretty much know how it is. it will be a little different of course... people grow... even parents lol.

~ waves ~ finally finished washing the floor, wishing to have a shower but not wanting to wake the neighbours.

i might go for a bit of selfishness right here. heck, why aren't more people night owls. then again, if they were, i wonder if i'd tend to be a day person.