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by ellen bass This is where I yank the old roots from my chest, like the tomatoes we let grow until december, stalks thick as saplings. This is the moment when ancient fears race like thoroughbreds, asking for more and more rein and I the driver for some reason they know nothing of, strain to hold them back. Terror grips me like a virus and I sweat fevered trying to burn it out. This fear is invisable, all you can see is a woman going about her ordinary day, drinking tea, taking herself to the movies, reading in bed. If victorious, I will look exactly the same yet I am hoisting a car from mud ruts half a century deep. I am hacking a clearing through the fallen slash of my heart. Without laser precision, with only the primitive knife of need, I cut and splice the circuitry of my brain. I change.
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, Last edited by bizi; 12-16-2008 at 04:53 PM. |
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