I am in my own little world now, trying to figure out how to get a fresh start on my new life.

I need time to decompress, yet I need to get out and have some fun too.

I suppose it will all come in time, at least I hope so.

I still have the divorce to deal with.

I am so not ready for the Holidays, coping with them, will just be going though the motions for me.

No gifts, I doubt I will decorate either. I hate feeling like this, but this is the way I do, so there isn't much I can do to change my feelings at the moment.

Sorry to ramble on.

Happy Thanksgiving to all, Enjoy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Sending lot of love, laughs and big hugs to all.

All I want for xmas is prayers and strength, I am thankful for many things, including you all.

Nikko

((((((Nikko))))))




Barb

Nikko,

Why not volunteer for the Holidays? I will be home all day Thanksgiving but am volunteering Christmas. I don't have a soul else to be with either day.

befuddled2

Nikko,
Maybe you are finding closure in one matter. The trial end of this is over. The rest will flow as it does. Take it off you chest and place it on the shelf, and get that weight off...deep breath.

I feel relief for you, now one day at a time, baby steps. Find one nice thing a day to be happy for, even if it is your family and US!

Di

Thanks.....I am grateful for many things and you all.

It is just me and my here, so I don't want to leave her alone on the Holidays.

We will get through them.

Closure? Seeing my DV counsler today, going to discuss divorce.

I have some things that I have put off doing, so maybe now I can get to them, and get back into a better routine of my days.

Hugs, Nikko

this is a good train of thought for you dear nikko.
one step at a time....
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Hi Nikko,
'Hoping you will check in soon.
How are you?
Mari

Hi,
I am checking in. I had a nice quiet Thanksgiving with my friends (a couple) that live in my complex with my mom.

I woke up yesterday feeling very depressed and extremely emotional. I think it was the after math of the holiday, of not being with, well you know.

I also had to say goodbye to a dear friend who is moving to Southern Utah too. That was emotional for me too.

My mom isn't feeling good today, she messed the bed, then missed the toilet, it was a struggle to get her cleaned up, her legs were just giving in. Then had to pee, so I had to get something to put under her, since she was still on the floor. Her legs just wouldn't work. I gave her some Tylenol Arthritis, made the bed back up.

I got her back in bed after awhile, now I am washing the bedding, I cleaned the bathroom.

Today I found my bunny Kelly had died overnight, I knew he was going. I tried wrapping him in a warm blanket yesterday, giving him water, and a carrot to nibble on, but I knew he wasn't going to make. Rabbits don't have long life spans. My other rabbit didn't want me to take him out of the cage.
So sad. She was comforting him to the last minute and then some. She is actually older.

My mom has her good days and bad. I just don't know anymore. I am not in a real good state of mind right now.

The holidays are doing me in too. Which is to be expected with me and my circumstances, I suppose.

I have to go finish the laundry, clean up the kitchen and just hang around making sure my mom is okay. She is sleeping now.

Love you all, Nikko

Love you, too, ((((((Nikko)))))),



Your life is hard and lonely now; but, I thank G-d that you are YOU -- for your Mom, for your animals. The energy that you are taking care of now will come back to take care of you soon.

Bless your bunny's soul. And BIG HUGS for you and for your Mom.


Barb

Dear Nikko,
It is good to hear from you.
Mari