[Mari]

Hi,
Here's the place to let everyone know what is going on.

Today / Friday was very hard. I'm depressed and anxious and not sleeping and either I'm ignoring hubby or he seems to be ignoring me.
I'm not in the mood to deal with him because I can barely deal with myself.

M.

[Pamster]

Oh Mari, I am so sorry you're feeling so wretched right now. I can't even imagine how hard the sleeping issues you're having must be. I just wish I could make it better for you. I know there is really nothing we can offer except our understanding, you've tried everything and still trouble sleeping plagues you. I just feel so bad for you with this problem. I hope something comes and offers you relief for th is soon. Any news on the sleep doctor's ideas on how to help you? I really wish we could do something for you.

Today looks good for us so far, Jackie got up at five and I told him to go back to bed and he did! Though he was up an hour later, and again I said to go back to bed and he did, so when he got up at 7 I knew I was darn lucky to have had the extra two hours of sleep I got this morning. The aid is coming out soon and we'll be taking Jackie out for a little while. So things are looking up a bit. Mom couldn't make it today and I will miss her but we have to do something with Jackie or else he'll go nuts today.

I am getting some good writing books at the library today too, I have three that are good but I need others, I want to get some ideas for the new book I am writing and to revamp older novels I have written, but the first priority is for me to finish the novel I am entering in the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award Contest. I only need 6K more words and I can do that in ONE day if I have nothing distracting me, then comes editing time. All hopefully before the deadline of Feb. 2nd, they are only taking the first 10K entries and I desperately want in.

So that's where I am at today. So far so good. I hope you get some sleep Mari, hang in there. Don't be too hard on yourself about ignoring your hubby, it's better you guys don't talk while you feel like this, better to not get in an argument.

[Nikko]

Hi,
Mari I pray you get some much needed sleep. Pam sounds like you have a nice day planned.
No plans for the weekend. Dirk is trying to sell his pop-up camper, since it is hardly ever used.
I think football and some movies I rented will be our weekend.
Tomorrow is my last day smoking, maybe will make it today, I have the prescription (Nicotrol inhaler). I set my date for Monday, so tomorrow would be my last day smoking.
Everyone have a good weekend...............Nikko

[Dmom3005]

Hi all,

I went to pt this morning. Yep on a Saturday they started opening on
the mornings.

Seems to be very quiet. But it was good. I then did some errands.

Derrick and Dad are out having a day to themselves. Soon I'll be babysitting.

Donna

[befuddled2]

I washed clothes today and had a hamburger out. Other than that I'm still recovering from the flu.

barbara

[Mari]

Hi,
I visited my friend who is taking forever to move into her new house.
It's an ugly house and depresses me.
Also, I got overwhelmed seeing all her boxes and junk everywhere. Seeing that stuff makes me seriously want to de-clutter and start throwing everything out in my own apt. so that I can live surrounded by simplicity and beauty.

I don't know how to do that. I suspect that I have to start with one corner or one shelf and spend a little time each day or so.

M.

[Pamster]

Man, I am so agitated. Jackie was bad last night, I was too angry to post about it. I was in the bathroom agitated because I was trying to go to the bathroom and he was pushing my stupid chair up onto my lap, as if this wasn't enough he then began leaning HEAVILY on the door, I told him to stop THREE Times and on the third time, and I did raise my voice, the knob popped through the plastic thing that was to keep door dings from happening, and through the wall. I AM SO ******. He refuses to listen to me and laughs like he doesn't have to listen to me.

It's making me so angry, I feel like it's group home time again, because he refuses to listen to me HOW am I going to be able to keep him from destroying the house after Jack gets a job??? IT's STUPID, but HERE I am AGAIN...Angry and ignored by the child I carried for nine months....I can't handle this. I really don't know what to do...He's just got no idea of how big he is or how much damage he can cause with that big body.

[Yellowfever]

Chillin on this Sunday afternoon trying to get some homework done so I can go out and play I hope to get a lot of things done and I hope to do well in my classes this semester

Sharla

I hope everyone has a nice Sunday

[Dmom3005]

Pam

So sorry there were more problems.

I have no idea's just yet. But I think when Jack is working you will get more
workers. You will need to ask for them though.

I would also work with the workers on some things that you can do at times
you need to go to the bathroom and its just you there.

Maybe there is a way to put Jackie in his room and make him stay there. Not sure exactly how, but with some help maybe you can come up with a way.

Donna

[Mari]

Dear Pam,
This stinks.
I offer my sympathies.
M.