[bizi]

Hello!
What is in store for the weekend?
I am getting my hair colored, long over due tomorrow morning.
Lots of reading to catch up on, our computer is back all fixed up and ready to roll.
It took forever to fix and lots of money too....but we are back.
I could not stay away, I miss you guys.
sorry for the drama.....
beth

[Mari]

Hi,
It is great to see you.

I'm not sure what I am going to do this weekend.
I am free except for my gym date with my girlfriend on Sun. And of course I have lots of paperwork for work.

Yesterday I called the maintenance people at our apt complex and got them up here to fix the heater.
(We had no heat working last winter either.)
It's fixed and I hope for nice warm days from now on.

M.

[waves]

Beth



hair coloring... sounds exciting... i keep mine as it is, but i do know how fixing up or changing one's hair is one of those "refreshing things" in life.

i'm glad to see you back. no worries for any drama as far as i'm concerned. always some drama going on, besides... lol. what's life without it?

Mari,

COOL (or better yet, WARM!) on getting the maintenance ppl in. i hate doing stuff like that. "other" ppl in house etc etc. glad you will be warmer. i hear it has been colder than usual in FL this year. or perhaps that is simply an impression... every time i talk to ppl back there it seems to be exceptionally cold. here we are in the 40's today - great, relative to how it's been still too darn cold for me, and worthy of glove-wearing. i was one of few when i lived in FL that would wear gloves when the temp dropped below 50. not always lined, depending on how cold. but i would wear them.

Here's to an early spring but i hear the groundhog announced it wouldn't be. well... one can hope.

good luck with your paperwork. i know how you must be looking forward to that!

~~~~~~~~~

as for me,

i have my "work" cut out for me this weekend, "literally" (puns intended).

last night, i finished a book i was reading: Riding the Bus with My Sister, by Rachel Wilson. Excellent. Extraordinary and touching tale, and very well written. a tear-jerker in places, but in a good way.

my "work" yes... i found an ad for a content/intranet writer... for a UK company. The role requires writing exclusively in english!

...and the ability to search the web and gather info from foreign (presumably english-speaking) contacts.

although i am excited as i believe i can do this job, i have yet to "move" on it. for once in my life, wouldn't i, couldn't i, pleeeeeease, Not Procrastinate and get the application docs (cv & cover in italian) done asap. priorities considered, perhaps even... Before Anything Else? Certainly not wait till tomorrow night at 9pm?? I have various CVs and letters to choose from already that, at worst, might require minor changes. so we are not talking writing my whole life story here! just some editing! i want the app to be received first thing monday. time is always of the essence for such things. i "should" (translate into therapeutic wording: "need to") be doing everything in my power to seize the chance at an interview, step one.

ideally i would like to send two parallel docs in english too... to show initiative as well as proof of writing ability, but....... ok this might warrant a thread. but not now. i had told myself, no posting or emailing or IMing, let alone playing games or fiddling with artsy sites, till i'm done preparing at least the 2 necessary docs for the job application. but i snuck in here... and then made exception to welcome Beth back here, and just had to check in, and of course just couldn't keep my mouth shut about this, lol!

i devoured my book on purpose so it would be one less thing on my mind. of course, i could have done the two docs first, couldn't i? and now here i am. see what i mean? what IS wrong with me???? i want to shake myself harddddd!!!!!

i also plan/hope to tidy a little more of my area, but that won't take long, and i've told myself i can just do a little - i don't need to "finish."

this weekend i would also like to write up a dialogue that frequently invades my head, for use in therapy. writing it would give it structure and allow me to explore all the nooks. the dialogue/debate/struggle is about my inability to make decisions, set goals, turn things in... they are all related. the decisional aspect and perfectionism are at the core, but it's kinda hard to set a goal if one has many "wanna be" goals and can't choose between them.

now dad is home. goodbye privacy. hello feeling "observed." sigh. off i go to try to do the right thing, regardless. will check in later.

~ waves ~ excited worried and confused

[bizi]

Go waves go!!!!!
You can do this!!!!!

feeling much better after a cut and color and hand massage...it is a school so much more reasonable than a full salon.

[Yellowfever]

Hi everyone it has been awhile since I have been on here. I just want to let you all know that I am doing better and better. The Meds are working. I am on 100mg. I feel more balanced as can be. But I have been more of an air head than usual. Is that considered normal for Lamictal? I am also taking an abnormal psychology class. One of my classmates spoke against the ECT. I told her that ECT has saved lives and helped people in many ways. My professor was impressed by my opinion. When certain friend explained to me how it helped it made everything less scary. I learned a lot from this forum and I have benefit from this forum a lot. I have had friends here who educated me and I appreciate it.

Yesterday I went to the book store to get a starbucks. This guy open the door for me and my friend. He went in line for coffee as well. He talked to me a lot but very loudly and even invaded my personal space a bit. There were signs I was really familiar with. I was not really alarmed considering the fact that my research project is on Aspergers disorder. He shared with me how he has ADHD. I told him so do I! lol We both laughed because we are drinking coffee and it was funny. The people around me stared at him like he was nuts. I kind of got angry about it. All because someone is different or has a disorder does not give you the right to stare at them like FREAK or WEIRDO. He with out a doubt had aspergers disorder. He is a nice guy and I do not think that people take the time to socialize with him because if how he interacts. I am glad I interacted with him because he was a very funny guy. He told me about some jokes and it was really cool to hear them. He told me what school he went to. He is going for his Degree in political science. That is so cool to me. I hope he enjoys that field.
I get fed up sometimes because of how he and I are societal rejects I am abnormal so people tried not to associate with me. I know for a fact that no one else would talk to him. My friends were really nice to him. My friends accept me for who I am and my condition. What I can not help but to notice is that in California people are more open to talk to those who are different from them versus Michigan where I currently live. People here in Michigan are not that open to much i guess. California was easier to make friends because I guess people were more educated to certain disabilities and mental disorders.

I now know why it took me 2 in a half years to make friends here in Michigan. It is all making more sense now.











alarmed about it because I knew

[bizi]

Well it was kinda quiet in here this weekend, hopefully folks are out having fun. enjoying the weekend as much as physically possible, painfree as possible.
If not then I am sending some warm wishes your way to those unspoken needs...and hugs of course.
Getting ready to see the movie "he is just not that into you" with a girlfriend of mine.....and her mother in law.
The guys are baby sitting her 2 year old...she is a doll.
worked in the yard...rather used round up on a bunch of weeds that have accululated in the cracks on the drive way and the side walks....sigh
there is so much crab grass in my saint augustine grass, I was supposed to paint it on each blade of grass, I jsut couldn't...don't have the patience for that today. maybe another day.
I know there are places in this country that are dealing with snow and cold weather...probably hard to think about killing weeds for them.
Our azaleas were blooming at the same time as the camilas, the paper whites have come and gone, now the japanese magnolias are blooming as well as the yellow jasmine are stated to bloom as well.
There were a ton of small sunflower plants that had sprouted under the bird feeders...jsut needed to pull them up before the lawn guy comes and mows the grass. Decided to save a few plants as they already seem to have small heads forming....It is crazy in the south. We had some nights in the 20's and even had a few inches of snow which had not happened in 30 years. but It has been lovely today 70 degrees.
WEll I had better grab a sandwich to snack on before the movie.
Hello to whomever follows me this evening.
beth