This is not just bad feelings... or being picked on.

You are not a practical joke. You are a dear person, and you must take care of yourself, and allow other people to help take care of you. That includes your mom, doctors...

To start with, please tell your mom EXACTLY what is going on - have her read these posts.

Bizi was absolutely right in the other thread. You are experiencing psychotic symptoms.

Please ask mom to take you to the hospital, and have her talk to your pdoc for you if he does not take you seriously. When you are in better shape, it will be time to have a confrontation with pdoc, or find a new one. But for now, get mom to advocate for you.

People have died because of hearing voices telling them to kill... right now, you say you know it's just you, it's not real. That is because you are still partly lucid. I am glad you are still partly lucid! This is the time when you have the ability to recognize severe symptoms and your need for treatment. These symptoms need to be treated NOW.

If these symptoms go untreated, your condition can worsen into florid psychosis. That term means you may hear and see things that are not real and perceive as completey real. It means a complete detachment from reality. That is a very DANGEROUS condition, and you need medical attention before things have a chance of getting that bad.

Oh gosh, i don't know what else to say. I am scared for you, Wes, that is how bad this situation is. You need to go to hospital. Please.

What exactly have you told mom?

~ waves ~

yeah ok i will go to the hospital ive told her that im suicidleand that im haveing helucinations but thats it

hey waves my mom is to busy at work to take me and none of my freind have vehicles right now so im kinda boned

Mom is too busy?

Did you tell her you are hearing voices to kill things and everything?

Did she see my email, or only you?

Do you have the money to take a cab?

Hon, the sooner you go in, the better. (and the sooner you get out!)

((( hugs )))

~ waves ~

im going to do what my mom said and not go to the hospital for her birthday and do wat i always do get rid of it the pegan way ask the earth to take my bad energy and meditate
it almost always works

ok... if that is what mom said... and she knows you.

if it doesn't work tho, you call her again, and follow up with the hospital, birthday or not.

i hope it works. that would be very very very good.

i'm glad you have these skills, Wes!

Sending you soothing vibes

~ waves ~

Hi baby boy. It is your mommy. I know we just talked and that we looked at new doctors for you and figured out what we need to do to keep you safe.

I just needed to drop you a note here too and let you know I am going to support you however you need.

And please remember, I asked you not to kill yourself on my birthday. The hospital, eh.....we can deal with that. Just don't leave me. Promise.

Hey Wes,

I'm sorry I haven't been around for a few hours. I wasn't at my home computer.

I didn't stop thinking about you or your mom..Hi MrsBear.

Mom's can handle birthdays in hospitals. She was there for yours right? Anything to get you help and to get those voices to stop. Mom will help you find the right Dr. It may take testing out a bunch, but the right one is there.

Hi Wes,
I just got home from work.

Are you alone?
Is someone with you?

Can you give us an update?

Thanks.

M.

... and anyone else wondering: Wes is not alone.

I hope "no one" minds that i posted this openly. It is a very valid concern.

Wes has said he will be meditating to control his negative energy.

I too am hoping he feels better soon and will check back in...

~ waves ~

p.s. Mari and Curious and Bizi i'm glad to see y'all are back coz it's 2 am my time so i should be heading under the covers here soon...ish.