Dear Pam,
I hope your summer goes well.
I have plans for myself for the summer too (mostly exercise and clear up my sections of the apt.)

Have fun on your Saturday.

M.

Yeah, Pam,

Check in later and tell us about your day with mom... hope it's a great one!

~ waves ~

Got some sunshine and got out and enjoyed the day with Mom and Jackie, the aid called in. We decided today she is no longer GOING to come on Saturdays, so we're telling her we don't want her to even plan on coming anymore. So there is a small confrontation due between us (me and the aid) and then another one with her boss telling them if they can't find someone else to take over the extra hours we're going to have to find someone else.

*Sigh*

So that was a big topic here in the house today before mom came over and while out with mom. It's too disruptive to our routine. We need to have her three days a week of the five weekdays, not go for saturdays anymore since she doesn't make it up if we miss it, and I don't like to have to call my mom every saturday morning when the aid will call in. On the saturday we get (alternating saturdays no less) to just have mom come over she just comes over by 10 am and we go on our way.

The aid was coming at 9:30 am and staying until about 11:30 and we're sick of the disruption because the days we just do this with mom on our standing 'date' we are always more relaxed. This will eliminate her going places with us unless it's summer and we need to go someplace during her shift. We'll see. Because during the week we work extensively with Jackie for the four hours she comes (split between 2 sessions/days) he gets rewarded for doing good behavior. With some sugar free chocolate.

We had a nice time today, I had to call her and mom got here around quarter of ten and we sat here awhile with the computer then we left. We all had a nice time too. We went to the library, dollar tree, walmart and wendy's, then we went home.

this sounds like a good plan, you don't need to have your saturday routine messed up and I know how much you enjoy your mom on the saturdays.
I hate confrontations though.
hope the rest of your weekend goes well.
Does Jack go with you guys during these outings or jsut your mom,
Did the punching bag come in?
beth

Yup the bag came in last wednesday and we picked it up on Thursday. Having trouble trying to get it mounted though. Oh well, hopefully it won't be much longer and it will be up. Thanks Beth, for caring. It's good to see you around again.

Dear Pam,
I appreciate your reports.
'Glad that you mostly enjoyed your Saturday by going out to your spots.
M.

Thanks Mari, I'm glad you guys care, I really need your friendship, it helps me stay strong during the long hard days when nothing seems to be going my way. It really helps. So I made pancakes today even though I was fantasizing we would have cereal so I wouldn't have to mess up the kitchen.

Anyway, there's no school tomorrow and it's gonna be a hard day I think, especially if the aid calls in again, and I am betting she will. *sigh* Anyway, I wish I felt better, this perrimenapause is the pits. Mom told me it's gonna pass, the mood situation never stays in the down position forever so I just have to wait for it to get better.

If I didn't have you all to talk to I don't know how I'd manage. I only have the Therapist twice a month if I am lucky, and the p-doc once every 3 months and I still feel like I'm lost at sea sometimes. So down right now. Just been a stressful week and with the changes I'm going through physically, I just don't feel up to much. Making pancakes was more then I wanted to do to start th is morning off right.

Dear Pam,
I forgot that you are going thru perimenopause right now.
are you having night sweats or flashings?
I get night sweats occasionally.
your nood swings is that waht you are noticing mostly?
being bipolar it would be very hard to know what was truely causing your depression, physically or mentally, hormonally etc.
I hope you are feelingb etter as the day gets going,
May I have some of your pancakes?
yummy I bet they are fantastic!
beth

yumm Pancakes! haven't had those in over a decade either.

sorry you're going through a hard time Pam. I hope the downer lifts soon for ya.

It was good to read your saturday report. Evoked a little nostalgia on my part... for Wendy's especially... sigh.

Pancakes, Wendy's, Klondike bars... is food all i can think of?

well take care. I hope tomorrow runs smoother than you anticipate.

~ waves ~

You're not kidding Beth, it is really getting frustrating about this floating mood thing, I can't tell really whether it's hormonal or situational or bipolar. Been steady on the final increiment of abilify now, the pdoc only wanted to up me to about 15 but I asked for at least 20 so I have been taking that for a couple of weeks now but still haven't had one iota of creativity coming out of me yet. I just don't have the motivation to do it. Heck I have hair color I bought two weeks ago I have yet to use. Just don't feel like it.

Thanks waves, you, Beth, Mari, Donna and the others really do lift my spirits. I wish I had more motivation to post, but I just feel like a lump. Making food three times a day and doing dishes, shopping, laundry and playing with Jackie just wear me out and there's not any school today because of the holiday.

Hope you all had a lovely weekend!