[waves]

i am having multiple Wellbutrin side-effects and now racing thoughts too.

to start with:

migraines w/ and w/o aura
auras w/o headache
photophobia & phonophobia v. bad and extend through day after headache remits
sometimes nausea
exhaustion

as such, i will be on computer when i can - which hasn't been recently. even with shades it is hard. sometimes no computer no tv only black sock and earplugs.

i want my own room!!!
with FOIL ON THE WINDOWS!!!

i am also having stabbing chest pain
- does not correspond to anxiety (no response to lorazepam).

it is constant/chronic and other sx absent so i would exclude heart or resp. issues. plus, it happened while starting on lower dose, then remitted. It IS listed in Wellbutrin pamphlet. very strange.

what else. oh

thoughts racing sometimes a lot making it difficult to concentrate.

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MED PLAN:
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i'm upping my Depakote to 1 gram.

1. that will eventually help with migraine prevention/intensity.

2. If enzymatic inhibition is stable, it will also counter activating sx (racing thoughts).

BUT

if this does not resolve racing thoughts
- OR, regardless -
if chest pain does not resolve

I will suspend Wellbutrin.

VENT:

i hate drug mfrs for farting their stupid xl formula abroad sans the other kinds so pts cannot titrate like should. all the side effects still make miserable 2 months, compare to not miserable 2 months, used for decent titration! xl has most issues than both other formulas combined probably from complaints i've heard on internet. terrible. should take it off market.

i am less depressed... but disabled by side effects.

there oughtta be a law.

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and NOW my head IS churning loose multilingual verbage like a blender. interferes with sleep. can't tell if churning or dreaming or what. big mess of sound and motion pictures HAH!

at times, my context gets "unplugged" and i read words in one language as though in another (and not even my natural ones). To think i am qualified to work as a translator - heh - if i were right now i would take text in one language and spit it out in three ~ intermingled ! Ya, da tripolar translator... requires special socket adaptor.

(see now, with the SR, i could skip a little tiny pill in one day, and "tweak" my dose here and there to avoid this hoohah.)

I WANT MY WELLBUTRIN SR BACK!

if you have advice pls post, i will check back... brain-fry allowing.





~ waves ~

p.s. cuticles still bad, benzo no benzo. wassapoint???

[Mari]

Dear Waves,

Oh Drat! This does not sound good.
The gram of Depakote will help.
Also, I'm not clear. I think you are still on / going back to 150 on the Wellbutrin for the moment . . .

if this does not resolve racing thoughts
- OR, regardless -
if chest pain does not resolve

I will suspend Wellbutrin.

Yes, those would be the two biggies for me too.
Chest pain?! Racing thoughts? I'm so sorry you are going through this.

exhaustion

And exhaustion continues.

I'm not coming up with suggestions right now.
I'm writing and reading your post and thinking.


Mari

[Brokenfriend]

I'm sorry that you are having a bad night. Make sure that you tell you Doctor about those Auras with your headaches. Have you stopped any medications recently cold turkey? When I stopped taking Ativan in the hospitol,cold turkey, I had those Auras when I shut my eyes.

I'm sorry that you are going through the rest of it too. I can relate to alot of what your going throught. Those chest pains are hard to deal with. Mine start in the middle of my chest,and last for 4 days,and up to a couple of months.

I understand the scrambled,distorting,tormented mind,with insomnia. It's hard to tell people how bad these type of things are,but it's dreadful,and I understand.

I have these flip down sun glasses for the computer screen when it's to bright when I'm light sensitive. I don't need them to often,but I flip them down when I do.

Hang in there. BF

[waves]

thanks Mari and BF for posting back to me... i have more to answer, better, probably tomrorow.

Mari appreciate your confirmation of plan.

Friend i am sorry and worried you have chest pain for months? scary. need tol ask you more about that.

today but no migraine but pain bad and now still zonked even after nap.

((( Mari )))
((( Friend )))

goodnight, and thank you both for caring

~ waves ~ wanting to throw in the towel already

[DiMarie]

Oh Waves I am so sorry to hear this. It really is a bad side effect to be living with.
I wish there were an easy resolution, and you find relieve. You lose precious days with the mess it is causing. Keeping you close in thoughts,
Feel better soon is my wish
Di

[Brokenfriend]

A family member was blunt,and it affects me with pains in my chest. I fealt like I got hit with a medicine ball,right in the middle of my chest,and the whole trunk of my body ached for three days. This was two,or three weeks ago.

It didn't start this way when I was a teenager,but started when I was in my 30's. I had panic attacks when I was a teenager. One time I tried to get off of my medication very slowly,because friends where telling me that it was my medications that was making me feel the way I do. Then after a long time,I felt like I was having a heart attack. I went to my parents house,and they called the doctor,and he gave me a high dosage of a tranquilizer,and the pain went away immediately. It's a different thing in the long run. Doctors don't like to give me a high dosage of that kind of medicine for to long.

When I get that pain,it usually starts in the middle of my chest. Sometimes I have a pain over my heart. Sometimes the pain travels to my back ,and slowly goes up my chest to a point under my left arm pit. When I feel like this,it's hard to do anything. I can break my concentration with a hobby. It takes time for it to stop hurting.

Sometimes it hurts in the middle of my chest,and the left back area,around the upper kidney area,and then it goes up my back to my arm pit,and shoulder area.

Sometimes I feel these jabbing pains in my heart area,but it isn't a heart problem. It's physical pains from anxiety.

I have worn t shirts out around the middle of my chest rubbing the pain area.

Also sometimes my head has so much pressure in it,that it feels very uncomfortable. That to is something that people don't understand unless they have it. Dang! I wish that they could cure it. BF

[Brokenfriend]

We where writing to waves at the same time. I hope that you are alright,and have a good weekend. BF

[Mari]

Dear Waves,

When is the pdoc coming home?
Can I count down the days with you?

M.

[dogodlvr]

I am so sorry you are feeling such unrest.. I will keep you in my prayers to feel better soon. In the next life God and I need to have a talk on whys. First why crimes against children close second..why mental illness. We could otherwise be healthy and productive if not for whatever it is we have or don't have in our heads....and why is treatment so hard to get right and stay right?
You have been such encouragement to me.. hang in there...
Peace~Pam

[Brokenfriend]

Originally Posted by dogodlvr

I am so sorry you are feeling such unrest.. I will keep you in my prayers to feel better soon. In the next life God and I need to have a talk on whys. First why crimes against children close second..why mental illness. We could otherwise be healthy and productive if not for whatever it is we have or don't have in our heads....and why is treatment so hard to get right and stay right?
You have been such encouragement to me.. hang in there...
Peace~Pam

Part of the answer is in Genesis Chapter 1. When Adam ate of the fruit of the tree which he was commanded to not eat of,his mind was opened,...he was to work by the sweat of his brow,and women would have pain in child birth. Then poison Ivy,and thorns,and things like that started to appear.

Read Genesis Chapter 1. That's the part that we know. I hope that this answers some questions that you have. BF