My boss makes his wife call me constantly over the STUPIDEST stuff. Stuff he should know. Things that can wait.

I finally called him back after Con's doc appointment and went off on him. To the point I started bawling. He knows I am bipolar. And you would think he would understand the anatomy of whiplash considering the nature of our buisiness. Asshat. I think he finally got it.

If I don't rest now, I don't come in later. The more he stresses me out now, the longer it takes for me to be well enough to pull a full day.

He's just so used to me pulling 10 to 12 hour days, sometimes two weeks in a row, he just can't get it through his head that I am human and frail and I can break.

When I started crying, he backed right off. I hate that. I hate crying. I hate crying in front of him. Then I get mad and I cry harder.

I want a beer.

OH! And Con has his gall bladder out on the 15th of January. He told the doc that he wanted it done as soon as possible. LOL. Then the poor kid looked at me and asked "How is the 15th as soon as possible, mom?"

thinking of you
just want to leave you some
((( huggggs )))

~ waves ~

((((((((((((((((((Mrs Bear & Con)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I know how you hate to cry, so do I, but sometimes we just can't hold it back, so it's okay. Damn I do it so much, I wonder if I have any tears left in me.

You are under stress from your job and your son's upcoming surgery, all my thoughts and prayers and strength are with you both. Kids kick back from surgery a lot quicker than adults, so that is one good thing.

Boss's well don't even get me started on them, they seem that their lives revolve around work and that's it. Makes me mad.

Hugs, Nikko

Hi, Bear,
If crying works, then do it more often.

My boss is something else too.
I sometimes have to make up stuff about going out of town for her to leave me alone. Then she calls and leaves messages anyway. Thank goodness for caller id.

I hope Con is feeling a little bit better knowing that a surgeon has him scheduled at last.

mari

I for one am so glad you are finally crying....and that in a strange way you are finally taking care of yourself. It might be a new beginning and maybe you will start learning to be more moderate and forgiving of yourself. You treat yourself ruthlessly. If you give others the impression that you can walk on water, they come to expect it. If you start giving them the more accurate impression that you can't, all the better. Remember you are a role model for your children and you don't want to create a hard act to follow.
KEEP ON CRYING and thank goodness you are having tears come out...they are poisons coming out of your body. You are wonderful, brave, and everything else special but you don't need to be perfect.
Bobby

Damn, Morgy. You peg me dead on every time. I love how blunt you are with me. I need to hear it.

Me too, Mari. If I ever take anytime off at all, I have to pretend I'm somewhere far away. Why do they do that? Interupt personal lives? I think it may be because they may not have one of their own.

HUGS back at you Nikko. You are gonna get through this new year stronger than the last. And now you can move from "a survivor" to "an independant woman." LOL Surviving sounds hard. Being happy and independant sounds like a lot less stress. Love you sweetheart.

Oh my Waves. I miss you. I am so glad you drop by even when its so hard to do so.

I was finally left alone. I scared my boss when I started crying I guess. I snuck into work Friday night to get just a little bit of stuff done and it was freaking chaos in there. Tuesday is gonna be fun, but they are just gonna have to handle me only being there half days for a while. At least untill I can sit in a chair longer. It's slow, but it's gonna get better.