Oh eva dear,

Yes that is pitiful and pathetic! I'm so sad with you, and angry too! That doctor is NOT NOT NOT good, and if you're feeling betrayal, it is right on in my opinion. Is there anyone else... to see? Your heart and soul are so beautiful it breaks mine to think of this. You are absolutely amazing in all ways...as Gerry says, in Body, Mind and Spirit; with that luck is not needed... and no one can rob you of faith... it runs so, so deep. My love and special prayers your way. We will heal together.

You are love;God's grace...

Hana

to all

early this morning
i was watching my
morning news with
Rosanna and Greg channel
5 tri state area
there is something about
women not to have their
mammos starting at forty
with no history of cancer
and those who have a history
at 30
are now suggesting
NOT to have them
until later than that
60
who the blank came up
with this bull turd
JAMA journal medical ***.
i have had 2 cervical neck surgeries

2nd one failed me in many ways
it has caused many X-rays MRI
CAT-Scans this injection that injection
this medicine no that medicine
while going through a discogram
meylogram 2 DNC constant bleeding
never had any problems in regards to
infections
but my hormones raged in my 20,
30ties with extreme sweating
during ovulation
my rage out of control many times
40ties it subsided some the rage
still out of control
and the sweating increased
as i was ovulating twice a month
hence the constant bleeding
my OBGYN ordered tests
showing i certainly going thru changes
there are 4 phases
so there isn't much confusion on
my part
it was a perfect storm

BUT NOW
a fresh m
MRI with and without contrast
diagnosis
osteomeyloites and or metastatic disease
translate
bone infection or bone cancer
3 doctors no answer
my sister a medical assistant
for many different doctors
is now working for a doctor
who is taking my findings seriously
had my sister make an appointment
to have the braca test

it is imperative that women
take this cunning disease
we all have
i believe mine was awakened

it is imperative that women stand
tall
speak out
pay close attention
to all that is going on
with your body

i failed to mention this in
my lumbar

i can say without a doubt
my pain has progressed
in pain not once in a while
not if i move wrong
this is growing
whatever it is
and i am still lost in thought
how can three doctors not all
entertaining ruling either of the
two

this is what Dr. Deaconti
will do for me
take me in as a patient
do tests to rule out
findings

wouldn't it be amazing
if it be a gross mistake

it has been shown
breast cancer likes bone
ironically true
it is one of the few
favorite places to go

so tell me please
am i nuts
or do i make sense

i make sure all my doctors are
not only on the same page
but same book
and if a doctor does not confer
with the patients other doctors
THERE is the problem

I KNOW MY BODY

who is anyone to tell me what i feel

who is anyone to tell me what to put
in my mouth

you take an oath

and i have inadvertently
had crappy luck

both the female
and bones are a problem
in the family
genetics


i am curious to know
what today's doctor



please pay attention
do not settle

i am glad to have a doctor
be concerned enough to see me

will be back

God Bless
keep watch over yourself

Yes eva,
I believe you make perfect sense, as you tower in stature far above those who have treated your pained body. We women must be observant and persist in care for our bodies.
We may suffer such miserable physical indignities but no one can rob us of faith and spirit. Your soul runs deep and cannot be touched. The ONE God shall always be our companion...

Thank you for you beautiful blessing spirit,

Hana

to all who follow

do not stop till
YOU are comfortable
with the results and
explanations that came to follow
zero
ZER0
ZEROZERO
INDICATION OF MY BREAST CANCER SPREADING

i am in awe
in awe

never settle

keep checking yourself
i found my lump
and never missed my
mammograms

please men and women
do not stop checking yourself

good health to all

be smart

spread the word to men also

no one exempt

Thank God above no spread. I was waiting to hear the news. xginnie

I was watching news
Only to hear she found a lump
She goes to the doctors
Mammo blood sonogram
all neg for cancer
She had a gut feeling
As this back and forth stuff
between doctors and tests
did not sit well in her gut
Almost a year later she gets a biopsy done
POSITIVE
ALL LYMPH NODE TAKEN
HAD A DOUBLE MASTECTOMY
POINT

SHE KNEW
SHE KNEW
Touch yourself
ME

dear friends

because my shrink would like me to try Zoloft

i was first on Prozac
then found my cancer
it not compatible with my cancer drug tamoxifen
so shrink puts me on lexepro
this put me in a very dark dangerous place
mentally
stop the drug

it has been a little over 2 years
that i have been on tamoxifen

my mental status is in much turmoil

my session yesterday
i asked my doctor after being with him
for 5 years now
what is it he sees
he feels i suffer from several forms
of depression
most importantly he feels it is
genetically in my genes
situation l depression
not having a partner
sad circumstances
so
reminding him i was on tamoxifen
and certain drugs interfere with it
Zoloft being one of them

my oncologist had started me on
Femara i take generic of this drug
i will be on it for the next 5 years
this drug i take once a day 2.5 mg
does work with Zoloft

i told my shrink
i want to get well
i do not want to feel this way anymore
i need peace in my life
therefore
i will try Zoloft
it will be 50 mg for three weeks
then 100 mg
once a day
my daughter Sareaeve with me at doctor
appointments
who is on Zoloft for a number of years
recommended me to give it a go
reluctant to add yet another drug in my system
is upsetting
this drug will be long term
i pray it helps

the Femara is a strong estrogen preventive drug
and because my cancer was estrogen driven it be the
reason for the change
it was time

i was told i may experience pain in my hands
something i already suffer from
hair loss
nausea
bla bla bla
do read you pamphlet for important information
to my fellow men and women

please please get your mammograms

men you are NOT exempt

i hope this helps

for those who follow my story
still having a hard time forgiving my
surgeon
took him tow years to admit
my left side developed a double bubble
from the very beginning
just sucks he did not have the nerve to explain that
my oncologist had me go back to him even he knows there was something wrong

maybe on day
i will have to work on many
doctors to did me wrong
and in the end did more harm than good
this be my experience

you all be very careful
and never just settle
especially when YOU know there is something
WRONG
very wrong
write everything down as you are going through it
and always have a advocate with you

my last three times out of my home to either going to
the doctors or some other important place i have incurred

$250.00 in parking tickets on we are fighting having tapes pulled about said location

point i haven't been involved in the way of the
changes that have taken place
just in the last 4 years out of work
not out in the world

the parking rules have become a way for the cities to really rack up the bucks

$39.00 improper parking
i backed up into parking spot that had a meter

$49.00 bus stop
missed the sign blockage of tree
just unbelievable

$110.00 bus stop
i was in the car

unbelievable

all i want is peace

and love to all
hope for the world

Have faith a bit in the Zoloft. I was on this for years, and it did good for me. I had no side effects. You are in my prayers about this Eva, you need a break!
Sending goo thoughts your way. xxxginnie

today a routine draw of blood
check up
there is a lump under my right arm pit
will see what he has to say
will also ask him if he can switch
me on another drug
i am on Femera
kicking my butt
be back later

what a relief
a switch back with less
side affects
my underarm is still residual
of surgery cutting into muscle
my spotting
imperative i go to OBGYN
in the works
please please please
get checked
and do touch yourself
much love and care
me