Another day at the doctors and hospital
 

X-rays and a CT scan of the lungs
Let all be well Heavenly Father

Before the test

My appointment with the oncologist
It has been since
January 9, 2012
Both my breasts were taken off
Cut away
Lucky to have found it so early
and had them removed was I able to bypass
chemotherapy and radiation
I am still on the cancer drug tamoxifen was unable to handle femra scared I am
Still
When you know your body so well
It is hard
Me

My walk to the hospital
 

Backed up is the diagnosis

While I had a appointment to get a CT scan and X-ray
I had a appointment with my oncologist
several blocks away
Attempting to walk it
I became winded heaviness center of chest
nausea lump in throat lightheaded
Wound up in the ER
IN THE END
My heart was not the problem
I am backed up
Now
I go every morning
Not like it was before the meds changed everything
I am severely backed up
As gross as that sounds
Relieved I am
Given a type of drink available OTC once a month
And then a prescribed medicine
Don't have name available as my child has my paperwork
and script
Amazed I was
Was prayed upon
And at the end of the day
My children came
Not the circumstances I would have chosen
I will not question my Father
Grateful I am
Me

Dear Eva,
I am sorry to see this so late.
( have not been very active on the forums during the summer.)

How distressing to wind up in the ER on the way to the oncologist. That is stress on top of stress. I hope you eventually got to all your appts and tests and heard all good news. Certainly good news that your ER visit was not heart related so that was a good start.
My best, Diandra

p.s. I also could not handle Femara, actually have not been able to handle any of the anti hormone meds. I hope you don't suffer too many side effects from Tamo.

had my annual ultrasound
 

january 12th 2012 my anniversary of my double mastectomy
why ultra sound
it is the best way to get a reading
after removal
still have another two years to be on
my cancer pill
i found my lump
it grew in eight months from my last mammo
a hard core believer of preventive health care
especially with my babies
point
all is clear
nodes clear
this a good thing
i am having problems as per my recent eye exam
retina specialist ASAP
retina in left eye is detaching and fluid and gases are being released around the entire eye
my middle sister two years ago or so
woke up virtually blind in one eye
identical problem
they put a belt like mechanism to hold it together
the other eye in much worse situation
im left to wonder
on 911 my family literally were exposed to the plume of debris
all the things that is happening to me my children my sisters
we live a mile and a half from the devastation
could we be getting ill because of what was in the air for such a long period of time
who knows
there is something going on
something
but nodes clear
thumbs up

God Bless
get you mammogram
touch yourself
under your arms
your shoulders
neck
be well
love
me

My menses stopped at fifty
 

I turn 56 in a few days
Have a first in the morning with my oncologist
And directly to my OBGYN after
I started to bleed
Scared I am
Me

my oncologist
 

has me stop tamoxifen
and will see obgyn tomorrow at 4:45
to rule out ovarian cancer
still bleeding it is red in color today
i am ready to remove all my woman parts including my ovaries
too much to deal with
one moment at a time
so *ucking tired
literally
sweet Jesus
hold me tight
me

p.s. script for blood work from oncologist LUNGS KIDNEY CBC CEA

DX BREAST CANCER

5 years is the minimum time
 

it will be 5 years that i am on tamoxifen
it would be sad
to have put my body through being on that medicine
never missed a day
to have been physically and mentally drained from the side affects
and almost to the date
i begin to bleed at the 5 year mark
had two more years to go
the bleeding has increased since yesterday
fire engine red
different from yesterday
if my veins are behaving as they are pictures to provide the doctor
who to say i'm not bleeding internally
so baby sister in tow
to hold my hand
my pap smear was less than a year ago
if there should be cancer polyps a tumor anything of that nature i was early in finding it
this being a big plus
i am ready to have everything removed
what to expect now having stopped tamoxifen
as i felt different three days before i started to spot
whatever will be will be
the future is ours to see
k sera sera
what will be will be
me

it hurt like hell
 

but a biopsy was given
the blood work with biopsy
will be on edge
prayers my Father hold me
it is tough and scary
me

There is little I can say Eva other than you are in my prayers. Know that you are loved and respected. :hug::hug:

More than I could ask for
 

In prayer
I pray for the women who carry on
Keep pushing forward
In prayer
For women who suffer just on a hormonal level
In prayer
For women who's doctors do not listen to the
In prayer for all as I be a tiny spec who wants more than anything
To understand ones own body
As only I know what I feel
I just need someone to really listen
In prayer
May my story help just one person
Your prayer is forever welcomed
In Jesus name
Amen