Thinking of canceling
 

With all that is going on I will put off plastic surgeon
It hurts
But my worries need to subside
To many other things going on
Me

Next Wednesday
 

Appointment made with surgeon
Let’s see what he has to say
Me

Made it to the breast surgeon
 

Both will come out and be replaced
Final surgery
No more
No more
Dear God
No more
Me

Better they come out Eva, please let us know the date so we can pray. Much love xx

Thanking all
 

For all the support
I means everything to me
Everything
I had to call the facility where I had my pet scan done for her is requesting a recent visualization of the implants
The office is mailing the disc and report over to his primary office
Then after his review I’ll get s call
The doctor impressed I had all the information kept including the kind of implant and serial number
Frightened but must do it
Again to all thank you
I have been keeping to myself
Even from my long time friend Jimmy who I can spend adult time with
He has been in my life far back since fourth grade
Can you imagine
But true
He has comforted me and seen them
The only man to see them
Having just getting a text wishing me happy Thanksgiving and asking to see me
Just not there
What a shame I tell myself
Me

Hey, Eva
 

Please, eva, please just say hello or something, anything. Please just let us know you are OK

Hello
 

So many horrible negative things going on
Holding on
Thank you for you concern
Be well and happy new year
Love
Me

Have finally found a new plastic surgeon
 

Can you imagine
Both balloons are deflating
Let always had a double bubble
Right has deflated so badly it’s scratches my innards
Behind the balloons
Did my homework
Appointment in July
Just so much going on
Me

Having to finally addressed botched work
 

Not looking forward to it
I’m not trusting of anybody
But left double bubble has always been hurtful
Now the right is deflating scratching the back wall of whatever it is rubbing against
Can’t lay on my left without pain
Can’t lay on my right without the same
Scheduled July 1st
Nervous I am
But it’s been a while putting up with shoddy work
Wish me luck
Me

PS
on that note
My obgyn office calls telling me my pap is on a every othe year basis
Well not if you suffer bleeding break through like I have
Never let front end staff put your life into their hands
When I called the insurance company it is most certainly important for this person to still have annual paps
Just an FYI


Next 28th
My nuclear stress test
If my heart will not return back to normal sinus rhythm
The surgeon suggested an ablation
Still on hold
One thing at a time
Flacainide isn’t working
Am on blood thinner and pressure meds
We shall see
Me

Surgery scheduled
 

Implants to be removed
And reconstruction
with smaller implants
To think I was lied to by the surgeon
You’re not alone I was told
I did much homework on surgeon
29 years under his belt
Spoke to me with kindness and respect
Explained why left had “double bubble”
Right began to deflate
They were never okay
Now having all I have gone through
And finding those who will fix someone else’s work blessed to have found him
Taking all one day at a time
Flacainide is working just a very few episodes and that be when I am overwhelmed and stressed
Had my nuclear stress test all looks good
Have to stop blood thinner four days before surgery
This being the last of it all
Holding on to his hand
Taking care of me
Do not just count on ones mammo
You must physically feel the breasts and
under the arm
Take care
Me