Thinking of canceling
 

With all that is going on I will put off plastic surgeon
It hurts
But my worries need to subside
To many other things going on
Me

Next Wednesday
 

Appointment made with surgeon
Let’s see what he has to say
Me

Made it to the breast surgeon
 

Both will come out and be replaced
Final surgery
No more
No more
Dear God
No more
Me

Better they come out Eva, please let us know the date so we can pray. Much love xx

Thanking all
 

For all the support
I means everything to me
Everything
I had to call the facility where I had my pet scan done for her is requesting a recent visualization of the implants
The office is mailing the disc and report over to his primary office
Then after his review I’ll get s call
The doctor impressed I had all the information kept including the kind of implant and serial number
Frightened but must do it
Again to all thank you
I have been keeping to myself
Even from my long time friend Jimmy who I can spend adult time with
He has been in my life far back since fourth grade
Can you imagine
But true
He has comforted me and seen them
The only man to see them
Having just getting a text wishing me happy Thanksgiving and asking to see me
Just not there
What a shame I tell myself
Me

Hey, Eva
 

Please, eva, please just say hello or something, anything. Please just let us know you are OK

Hello
 

So many horrible negative things going on
Holding on
Thank you for you concern
Be well and happy new year
Love
Me

Have finally found a new plastic surgeon
 

Can you imagine
Both balloons are deflating
Let always had a double bubble
Right has deflated so badly it’s scratches my innards
Behind the balloons
Did my homework
Appointment in July
Just so much going on
Me

Having to finally addressed botched work
 

Not looking forward to it
I’m not trusting of anybody
But left double bubble has always been hurtful
Now the right is deflating scratching the back wall of whatever it is rubbing against
Can’t lay on my left without pain
Can’t lay on my right without the same
Scheduled July 1st
Nervous I am
But it’s been a while putting up with shoddy work
Wish me luck
Me

PS
on that note
My obgyn office calls telling me my pap is on a every othe year basis
Well not if you suffer bleeding break through like I have
Never let front end staff put your life into their hands
When I called the insurance company it is most certainly important for this person to still have annual paps
Just an FYI


Next 28th
My nuclear stress test
If my heart will not return back to normal sinus rhythm
The surgeon suggested an ablation
Still on hold
One thing at a time
Flacainide isn’t working
Am on blood thinner and pressure meds
We shall see
Me

Surgery scheduled
 

Implants to be removed
And reconstruction
with smaller implants
To think I was lied to by the surgeon
You’re not alone I was told
I did much homework on surgeon
29 years under his belt
Spoke to me with kindness and respect
Explained why left had “double bubble”
Right began to deflate
They were never okay
Now having all I have gone through
And finding those who will fix someone else’s work blessed to have found him
Taking all one day at a time
Flacainide is working just a very few episodes and that be when I am overwhelmed and stressed
Had my nuclear stress test all looks good
Have to stop blood thinner four days before surgery
This being the last of it all
Holding on to his hand
Taking care of me
Do not just count on ones mammo
You must physically feel the breasts and
under the arm
Take care
Me

6 and a half hours later
 

That’s how long the surgery was
I thought I had prepared myself for the worse but I was wrong
It was and still is painful and the drains were polled the left one has developed a clot
Hoping it will do exactly what it should and slowly dissipate no return to my blood thinner and I move around
He tried to aspirate with no success and wants to see me Monday
I am a good patient nobody can take that from me
Just please take care of me and keep me going so I can resume all back to myself I need to come back to me
Hoping to ret the help I need to move forward to the next step
Me

Praying for you

Praying for you Eva xxx

7 weeks post op
 

Difficult it is
6 1/2 hour later
Used cadaver pig skin and sewn them to my ribs
Was told of what a horrific job that was done
Left one developed a clot
Awaiting to have an MRI w/contrast
Nothing
Absolutely nothing has gone smoothly
I’m just hanging on
Sad as sad could ever become
Having to keep my head above water getting a bit harder
Haven’t let go of his hand
Just all the same troubles
I wish to be left alone by them
I never in a million years ever thought I would be where I am
Never
But here I am
Wishing all well
Me

Very glad to hear from you --- just wish it were better news. Sending prayers to our Lord and gentle hugs to you.

Eva,
Keep holding His Hand; He's there. You have had so much to deal with.

You are in my prayers.

Gerry

[QUOTE=eva5667faliure;1279033]My you all be in a better place
I wanted to share my experience and help through this experience I am going through
Finally after almost two weeks a MRI is set up Friday
Show much skin has been removed and the skin that has been pulled from under my underarms has given me sensation as the nerves haven’t been damaged the undersides are still very painful because of the cadaver being sewn to my ribs
In three months should the left implant not drop into place the doctor will do it manually during the time he will put nipples on
He is a caring human being and is interested in bringing me the best of what he can offer both body and mind
I was blessed to have found him
Much physical pain comes with it
Something I am used to
For the prayers I thank you sooo much
For anybody with questions feel free to ask
Thanks much for all the love
Me

Lovely Eva ... I am so sorry to hear you continue to have ill health, but it is so so lovely to see how you are still being positive and still sharing your love with everyone.

its been a few years since I have been on this forum

Saffy xxx

Eva, you have endured so much, your path is strong, thinking of you xxx

Wrote a update on where I am
 

Waited to long
List it

In short
Things did not go well
But I will get over it
I pray
Hope all are doing well
Me

Finding it so hard to hang on
 

This body that behaves like quicksand
Slowly crushing you
Slowly the life coming to an end
Let go I tell myself
Just let go
To have this feeling come to me
The devils hour
I’m up every morning at three crying for an hour before I rerun to bed after making Eva’s lunch and breakfast
I am just broken
Haven’t been seen or heard from
Just how I am
So much taken from this body in the last ten years
One by one
Piece by piece
Was never like this
Yet here I am
This death in my gut
Take it from me I ask every single morning
This is how I wake
Every single morning
How did I get here
Me

P.S.
Had the breast reconstruction
In worse pain now
I was never given the choice
I did my homework
With my insurance company
Found a five star doctor
But that’s not what happened
I can’t even look at me without crying
Especially my left side

December 9
 

This be the day I disrobe before my doctor
For the first three months back and forth back and forth to hi
After some time
The last time I was in front of him
His outlook to make nipples something I never would have had done
But it was bleak each time I went to see him as I couldn’t sleep for a week the pain was just so unbearable
I had my family vice me between rolled up blankets on each side of my body as I lay on my back
Something I am not used to
What was he thinking I keep telling myself
I so cannot wait to see him
I sick of the brush me off attitude
What the hell does he want to get paid for
I will live with this pain who knows for how long
December 9th
Me

My last final visit 6 months post op
 

And his answer knowing how I explained under no circumstances would I ever increase a grain more of pain meds
Because having to have done the extensive homework the courage to finally address it always chief complaint pain in one
Double bubble in the other that I was told it would fall into place to give it time
LIE
and to then hear this doctor say I don’t know why you healed as you did and the pain is not understood now in both
Said sorry and walked out the door