dear friends

my chest look acceptable to me
i call it my hiccup in the road
he did the best he could
he is all happy and blah blah blah
but they aren't anything
like augmentation at all this
is what women are afraid of
as tiny as that lump i found
it was deep rooted to my back
wall remember both are the same
when removed but the cancer was
in my right breast
to the young mothers
and all mothers to be
say without any pressure
it is only my opinion
try if you can to give your child
your breast
there is a little something
different and special
never to take from bottle fed
babies because i would hope
the parent to hold their baby
or babies the connection is
feel the touch of the baby looking
at you while feeding breastfeeding
came easily
i was speaking to my ex-husband
on my side wiggled her way as she lay
next to me on my right and began suckling
all on her own my arm was under my head
holding my head up like a pillow
i have no nipples opt not to have them done
might have tattoo or piercing to give it
definition now that they have a scar that needs
work like vine of small like flowers
no biggie
dear GOD thank you
for giving me the ability to find it in
the time i did now live with treatment
after i took them off
AMEN!
ask me anything you may want to me

someone who cares

to express the loss
is not difficult for me
my disappointment
is just the tip of the iceberg
my gut it has never failed me
and because i did not listen
to my gut i am unhappy with
the end results will make
the best of the matter
it was my dermatologist
was able to pick up the problem
without any input and then she says
Eva
no more surgeries
how worth it is it
bingo
she made it clear
additionally she knows who he is
my point

go with YOUR GUT TALKING
IT IS YOUR LIFE AND NO
ONE KNOWS IT BETTER THAN YOU!

MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY
January 9, 2012

had my 1st colonoscpy cleared for now
thank you GOD

please my message is preventative health care

someone who cares

dear friends
dear God
my brother
mother Mary

today oncologist appointment
my attitude about the implants
i could live without them
really have had poopy luck
i mean how can you make
a doctor see what he doesn't
want to see because he is the
only one that does not see what
i and others do
so self-confidence are not
in the chest
but if you are going to get them
done you expect first and foremost
trust and a good open relationship
that was my reconstructive doctor

today we deal with ridding the body
of cancer
i am on tamoxifin
going and going
one and a half year on them
it seems just like yesterday

ironically the thing that saddens
at times remember i have no
REGRETS but when i get the
chills the first thing i do
is put my hands on my chest
no nipples to get hard no sensation
but i know i took the right step
and Angelina has the ability to get
the word out there even quicker
than quick
not her mother
not her aunt
grandmother
now to have a hysterectomy
bravo bravo brave is she
something i think about
one day at a time
there are so many things
mechanically going south
i haven't been that lucky
i ask my Lord for a miracle
and go with the flow
get your mammo
do important things
around your birthday
so you don't forget
sending with LOVE

WILL BE BACK
SOMEONE WHO CARES

dear friends

changed appointment
not feeling well
physically or mentally
to many things happening
i need it to slow down a bit
but it is priority Monday is
the day
the temp. here is in the
90 degree weather

ginnie love ya
did you get your
boobs checked yet

someone who cares

No I didn't do it yet. However I have my PCP appt. this month and will get the script for it. don't worry I will do it very soon. I know you care, and I know why. I am adopted so I don't know what is in my family. Will take care it. You take care of yourself, and know that I do keep you in my prayers daily. ginnie

Hello Eva,

I care too

I havent suffer with my breasts, well, they are horrible anyways hehe, but I have lost hair that wont be back and my eyes have always given me trouble, so, I know the feeling of dealing with an "organ".

I have learnt that we are more than "just" an organ... we are a complete soul and spirit and, bodies can be replaced, but souls cant you know....

I just want to leave you lots of hugs !!!

your concern captured
my heart
need a friend
or a shoulder
i'm here

someone who cares

dear friends
get your mammogram
men and women
touch yourself
only you know your
body
it is your life

went to oncologist
took my blood work
checked under the arms
throat
and tapped on certain
parts of stomach

had pasta
getting sleepy
tired

results of cancer #'s

till then

someone who cares

I have not forgotten the breast check. I get the script on the 27th of this month. All will be well. You are wonderful to keep reminding people to do this. MEN too. My dad had breast cancer.

You are in my prayers Eva. ginnie

my sweet ginnie
as you are an Angel
my Love too you
you take good care
and keep on walking
that sand and let Him
carry you

someone who cares