Hi Eva,

I am sorry about the latest.

You so deserve a major break from any further challenge, dear one.

You and yours remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Much Love to You Always,


DejaVu

And my thanks and
Love in return
Me

it is four years today
i had my both breasts removed to eradicate
my breast cancer right away
nobody remembered
not a concern of theirs
its i guess something i will go through alone


for those who follow
touch yourself
i had a mammo every year since 35 years old every year until i
and it still wasnt found
i found it healing from another surgery

After missing past years pap for the very first time in my entire history getting one every year started young because my grandmother maternal died of breast cancer
My gynecologist has my blood results
We spoke about my doctors not on board
He said he too knew a bit about what I was talking about
was interested but could not advise
Been with him for seventeen years
Praying all is done and well
Me

Sweats when my sleep
The kind where everything needs to be changed
PJ's pillow case

This did not start when I began DEPLIN
This has only been a problem when my daughter
gets her menses
My period stopped at fifty
When Corissa ovulated and a period is due
My body is affected
There are times my mini pad
For it is something I ALWAYS wear
Has a pink hue to it
And just to make sure I am not seeing colors
I see is confirmed by eye other than mine
I line them up as it begins in my own bathroom
Has anyone been that aware of oneself

The only fear is
When I found my breast cancer
My HANDS found my lump
By accident
That I believe my Father
Guided my hand
It was only then did I experience
A thirty pound weight loss
Unexplained
As my meals did not change
And the other was the sweats

Now
I stopped smoking cigarettes at fifty
Two prior years attempting to stop
But in the end stopped
I have emphysema in my right lung
A little to late
I think it is time for a pulmonary specialist
Just to rule out lung cancer
I am frightened
But it is time
Me

X-rays and a CT scan of the lungs
Let all be well Heavenly Father

Before the test

My appointment with the oncologist
It has been since
January 9, 2012
Both my breasts were taken off
Cut away
Lucky to have found it so early
and had them removed was I able to bypass
chemotherapy and radiation
I am still on the cancer drug tamoxifen was unable to handle femra scared I am
Still
When you know your body so well
It is hard
Me

Backed up is the diagnosis

While I had a appointment to get a CT scan and X-ray
I had a appointment with my oncologist
several blocks away
Attempting to walk it
I became winded heaviness center of chest
nausea lump in throat lightheaded
Wound up in the ER
IN THE END
My heart was not the problem
I am backed up
Now
I go every morning
Not like it was before the meds changed everything
I am severely backed up
As gross as that sounds
Relieved I am
Given a type of drink available OTC once a month
And then a prescribed medicine
Don't have name available as my child has my paperwork
and script
Amazed I was
Was prayed upon
And at the end of the day
My children came
Not the circumstances I would have chosen
I will not question my Father
Grateful I am
Me