just a few to remember them

got like 2 days


getting done 9th

dear friends

the 9th came and went
can't say i didn't cry
took a shower
cried real hard
got ready looked
pulled the zipper up
to the hoodie
son drove me
daughter son the second
said my hellos
and good byes
that's it
seen doctor yesterday
reconstruction
still letting out more than
he would like
i drain
2 oz in a 6 hr period
drains still in
so will see in a few days

haven't seen them yet
did get a beautiful profile
picture of body with the
side of the breast that had
cancer
print out
black and white
put in a beautiful black glass
frame
made for each other
hung in my room
it's beautiful
i am so lucky
grateful
i was warned
did what i was taught
never expecting
cancer
i breast feed all four of
my children
odds
were certainly not on my side
it is what it is
just the way it should be
next time look at the unexpected
you never know
regrets i have none
inside i had it
somehow found it
acted on it
real quick
i'm so glad my baby girl
took the picture for mom
so glad
she captured the beauty
i do not have cancer
my breasts do not define me
they were beautiful
very beautiful
they were mine
but some higher power knew better
thank you God
Amen

dear friends

very difficult to take my showers

see doctor wednesday

interested in what will be done

keep you abreast ha ha

Eva, I was directed to you thread.

My wife is about to have a double mastectomy and reconstruction. We've been talking along about how she feels and I keep trying to pull that out of her. I can't know how she feels but I can can be aware.

We did have a break. I'll get a spinal cord implant about a month before her surgery and will be better able to take care of her (I hope).

I understand I am dealing not only with the pain of surgery but the fear of permanent change, self image issues, and other emotions. I hope you keep blogging and let me be a bit of a fan. Maybe it will help me support my wife (and you perhaps)?

Pamela is 53. She is very nervous and confesses a lot of fear. She has already had surgeries for other things so we will not worry about 'cutting' other places in her body to harvest for reconstruction. She was on the fence about this but I got a close friend of hers to help me talk her out of that. Still I made sure she was comfortable with that. Well, as comfortable as she could be.

i am sorry to hear a fellow sister in such a way
my cancer was found by my self-exam
i don't know about pamela for myself
i always new how i was going to handle it
double mastectomy done
cancer was in right breast 3:00
i have 4 children
all 4 were feed off me for long periods of time
statistics show low % i'm thinking the test would be fine
so much for statistics
i am still in a mourning state
i am so happy i had pictures of myself
two pictures i framed both
they show my right breast
a reminder why i did what i did
like i said to most maybe overboard
having both taken
first i knew before getting it
second biopsy showed it infiltrated
it managed to go outside the duct infecting
surrounding tissue with cancer cells
i did as much homework as i could
but was urgent about removal
it was growing in my body
i needed it stopped asap
pictures revel morbid incision
something i did not think would be me
but it was it wasn't clean cut it was deep
they are not done
i was relieved and sad at the same time
the history alone feeding my kids
bottom line it was a part of me
physically they are numb
the expanders are in filled too
now oncologist to see if any treatment
is necessary before permanent implants
put in
i have no nipples
i think i'll opt tattoo nipple
rather than reconstruct
love her love her love her
help her feel beautiful
that they are a special part of her body
but they do NOT DEFINE HER and
it's your job to help her understand that
then help her and do not be selfish understand
implants are available
bottom line they got all the cancer
according to report after biopsy
done to both
cancer was found to be in
right breast only
I HAVE NO REGRETS having both removed
now i just hope they will look somewhat acceptable
love her love her love her
listen AT her
console her
be grateful found early
i will continue posting
feel free asking me anything
God is with you
be well